Today I found out that the daughter of one of my mom's friends killed herself on Monday.
She was only 10 years old.
~Emily
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow] [glow=#0000ff] "I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." [/glow]
woo .. I went shopping today and bought 4 new pairs of pyjama's .. that's right .. 4 new pairs .. i couldn't decide! and I bought new jeans and new earrings .. gah .. I'm broke
I have no clue really. I only met her once like 6 months ago, she seemed fine and really happy. I dont know all the details about it cuz i really dont wanna ask.
~Emily
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow] [glow=#0000ff] "I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." [/glow]
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow] [glow=#0000ff] "I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." [/glow]
Yeah it was a pretty awful assignment .. actually the entire child abuse class I took was pretty depressing.
The 4 year old had been beaten, starved, locked in a cage and a closet etc. The child was left alone one day .. told the neighbor next door who saw her in the hallway she was "going to leave mommy and daddy because they didn't really love her, and go be with god because it's pretty there and the angels will take care of me" and then she went back inside and climbed off the balcony.
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow] [glow=#0000ff] "I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." [/glow]
Didn't depress me. I already had a mental meltdown on Tuesday, so nothing effects me at all. I highly recommend completely losing your mind, it makes you feel better, or apathetic.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
Yeah, I don't feel better as much as I feel unaffected. You know, I completely flipped out on Tuesday, and since then, I couldn't care less about anything. I finally got a job and I got to see Interpol live, yet here I am, not caring about how good things are. I am not sad, I just don't care.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.