6th Album....

committed · Post by **committed** » 2/3/2003, 8:34 pm

madeline was the only girl i dated for longer than a week.

i've only dated five girls total.

hasn't even added up to six months.

need sex!

Sufjan Stevens · Post by **Sufjan Stevens** » 2/3/2003, 8:41 pm

Emily wrote:4 out of a billion. you really think there is only one person out of a billion for you? now that's just depressing. jeff's right, if it didn't end right, it wasn't meant to be right. or else you're just really stupid.

But I am really stupid. I am the type that is willing to go back and try to make things better. I just never get a chance to try and fix my mistakes. I would do anything to try and talk to Steph again, but she's not willing to speak, so I won't force myself into her life.

Maybe I was meant for Steph, and I just dropped the ball. Who knows? I am not going to obsess over this. If she would give me a chance to talk, she would see that I changed what she hated about me. But if she doesn't, then she doesn't. It's her life.

emily · Post by **emily** » 2/3/2003, 8:44 pm

Have you ever thought that she might be missing out? It's not just her life, it's your life, too. In the process of trying to make yourself happy, you are just getting farther from your goal.

committed · Post by **committed** » 2/3/2003, 8:49 pm

you can't rely on someone else to be happy.

Sufjan Stevens · Post by **Sufjan Stevens** » 2/3/2003, 8:49 pm

I would like to think that she is missing out by leaving me, but the way she looked when she did it would say otherwise. She smiled when she said we should never speak again. Something like that gets burned into your brain, and as much as I would like to think that she misses something about me, the more I realize I am just fucking with my mind. I take things for what they are, and this is what it is. She doesn't want to see what I am really like anymore, and I have changed. I wish she would speak to me, but I am not going to fight with her about it. If she reads this, then she should get the hint that we need to speak. She won't though.

emily · Post by **emily** » 2/3/2003, 8:53 pm

I'm not going to ask about the breakup - because it's none of my business and I don't care to know. But there has to be something she misses about you, although she may not show it. If she spent part of her lifetime with you, there had to be reason. You don't just go around spending your life with people you don't care about.

Sufjan Stevens · Post by **Sufjan Stevens** » 2/3/2003, 8:56 pm

You know, you're just putting evil thoughts of me trying to talk to Steph in my head. Stop it, don't encourage me. Silence is preferred in our lack of relationship. :lol:

emily · Post by **emily** » 2/3/2003, 8:58 pm

I never said talk to her - just don't believe that there's nothing about you she misses or that she doesn't care about you. She would have to be totally insensitive to everything in the world if she didn't.

Joe Cooler · Post by **Joe Cooler** » 2/3/2003, 9:22 pm

You should be our resident guidance Counselor (sp?)

Sufjan Stevens · Post by **Sufjan Stevens** » 2/3/2003, 9:33 pm

No no no, that's Bethany. She just happens to be in a class right now.

Joe Cooler · Post by **Joe Cooler** » 2/3/2003, 9:35 pm

Oh Gotcha

OLPGoose · Post by **OLPGoose** » 2/4/2003, 8:38 am

Good Mourning wrote:I would like to think that she is missing out by leaving me, but the way she looked when she did it would say otherwise. She smiled when she said we should never speak again. Something like that gets burned into your brain, and as much as I would like to think that she misses something about me, the more I realize I am just fucking with my mind. I take things for what they are, and this is what it is. She doesn't want to see what I am really like anymore, and I have changed. I wish she would speak to me, but I am not going to fight with her about it. If she reads this, then she should get the hint that we need to speak. She won't though.

people sometimes smile when they are uncomfortable. When somebody tells my something like "my grandmother died yesterday" i say sorry an dno matter how bad i feel, i end up smiling when i say it. its really bad, but i get so uncomfortable that i just smile. so her smiling doesnt mean she was happy about it.

emily · Post by **emily** » 2/4/2003, 11:58 am

Or nervous laughing. Hah. Guidance counselor. I can't even get my life together.

starvingeyes · Post by **starvingeyes** » 2/4/2003, 12:25 pm

alan. dude.

you're 18 and you've only had 4 girlfriends, and you want to get married. buddy

you are too emo. take it back a notch. be young. fuck around.

Brooklin Matt · Post by **Brooklin Matt** » 2/4/2003, 12:30 pm

Is there anyway you guys could PM each other about this. This is total spam. I don't mind it much, but it seems to require its own thread.

emily · Post by **emily** » 2/4/2003, 12:36 pm

Brooklin Matt · Post by **Brooklin Matt** » 2/4/2003, 12:41 pm

What are you smiling about baby? 8-)

I'm just doing this to contradict my previous post and to flirt with Emily.

committed · Post by **committed** » 2/4/2003, 1:33 pm

get a room

areusad831 · Post by **areusad831** » 2/4/2003, 2:11 pm

you know i am happy that my three year relationship ended with her cheating on me b/c otherwise i would still be obsessing over her. Alan give it a year then try again, give some time to adjust to what didnt work before. We are young and there are many years ahead to try again maybe just not now.

theo · Post by **theo** » 2/4/2003, 2:16 pm

isn't there a forum where this stuff goes? this has nothing to do with the 6th album. Lets discuss that. I have a feeling it is going to be nothing like gravity, and that is a very good thing.