-Sarah
Goodbye you liar,
Well you sipped from the cup but you don't own up to anything
Then you think you will inspire
Take apart your head
(and I wish I could inspire)
Take apart your demons, then you add it to the list.
So, last night I went to a concert. It was half past midnight by the time I got home and my flat was cold, so I thought I'd make myself a nice hot water bottle to stop me shivering in bed and being unable to sleep. So there I was filling it with boiling water when the top of the kettle flew open and boiling water went all over my hand. Owwwwwwwwwww. I had to go to bed with a bag of ice tied to my hand and even then I woke up again when the ice melted cos it hurt again so I had to get more ice. Now my thumb and my first knuckle are all bright red and hurt a bit but I managed not to blister anywhere which is very good.
But I wanted to go dancing tonight and I'm too scared that a man will grab that hand and it'll hurt too much. Plus I seem to have hurt my knee last night standing on tiptoes. And it's cold and windy out. And I'm really tired. And the indicator on my car's broken so I have to hold on to the lever thing to stop it indicating left all the time - and the stupid garage can't look at it until Monday.
But still, it means I can stay in and watch the olympics and the first episode of the new series of the Apprentice
Open your eyes to nights and days, you close them up and float away and somehow inbetween you've got to master lying to yourself you back the cause, get out of school, you get a job, the job gets you and somehow every day you end up serving somebody else now if that ain't panic that you're feeling, then you damn well better start you can drive it into that head of yours with the hammer in your heart.
And it's alriiiiiiiight now, take the world and make it yours again.