Good news and bad news:
First off, neutral news -- I'm actually booked for surgery on my knee after a year of waiting. Actually, 5 days over a year. (December 3, 2002 to December 8, 2003)
Good news -- I get to miss school for the rest of December.
Bad news -- I have to miss school for the rest of December.
TTYNKAM (TYPDCAA) III
"if the nuremberg trials were applied to us foreign policy, every us president since 1945 would have been hanged." noam chomsky.
...and this is me hanging on / i'd burn our initials in the sun if it would shine / anxiety chokes me like razor wire / if hate's in your heart man, you'll take what you're given / wake up / i'm not the only one / it's never goodbye / go ahead and play dead / if everyone's a casualty, then take your time, there ain't no trouble / these wounds they will not heal / ambition can be a tricky thing / what the hell do i know about rape anyway? / this is not what i hoped for / ain't it so weird how it makes you a weapon / who will be there to tell me how stupid i am? / those living for death will die by their own hand / and it's me that I am spying on / pick up the pieces and live with the stars / hurry up and wait / things have never been so swell / they're always the ones who slowly drift / be great / ...and this is my world.
...and this is me hanging on / i'd burn our initials in the sun if it would shine / anxiety chokes me like razor wire / if hate's in your heart man, you'll take what you're given / wake up / i'm not the only one / it's never goodbye / go ahead and play dead / if everyone's a casualty, then take your time, there ain't no trouble / these wounds they will not heal / ambition can be a tricky thing / what the hell do i know about rape anyway? / this is not what i hoped for / ain't it so weird how it makes you a weapon / who will be there to tell me how stupid i am? / those living for death will die by their own hand / and it's me that I am spying on / pick up the pieces and live with the stars / hurry up and wait / things have never been so swell / they're always the ones who slowly drift / be great / ...and this is my world.
Josh, tell Jenna stop being so close-minded. God, how I hate that.
!EMiLY!
sweet blasphemy my giving tree
it hasn't rained in years
i bring to you this sacrificial offering of virgin ears
leave it to me i remain free from all the comforts of home
and where that is i'm pleased as piss to say
i'll never really know
sweet blasphemy my giving tree
it hasn't rained in years
i bring to you this sacrificial offering of virgin ears
leave it to me i remain free from all the comforts of home
and where that is i'm pleased as piss to say
i'll never really know
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Mechanical Thought
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Random Name wrote:okay, first of all - don't let anyone ever tell you what to do. ever. I don't care if its the right thing, you have to make up your own mind before you do something.
and second, I don't necessarily agree with what everyone else is trying to tell you. To be honest I don't see the point in going down without a fight. And If you are telling someone to let go then you are no better. (sorry if that isnt what you wanted to hear but its all I got)
No, I understand. It's not that everyone is telling me what to do, it's a mere suggestion towards the actions to be taken. But, she has been fighting for six months now, I think she is ready. I mean, she's about sixty pounds and laying in a fetal position in a hospital.
Without you I'm as good as
dead ...
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Henrietta
Josh-I know I'm not one to talk, but that's not a reason to kill yourself.
Caitlin-I completely understand, and if you really think you should do it, try and be strong. You know she'll be better off. Actually telling someone it's ok for them to let go and that you'll be ok is a respectable thing to do. Although very hard. That's so sad, my grandmother went the same way.
Life is a bitch.
Caitlin-I completely understand, and if you really think you should do it, try and be strong. You know she'll be better off. Actually telling someone it's ok for them to let go and that you'll be ok is a respectable thing to do. Although very hard. That's so sad, my grandmother went the same way.
Life is a bitch.
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i just got my second "strike" at work. one more, and i'm gone. it seems as though i am going to have to look for a new job in the new year.
-lori
she's a fool for the last living rock king
http://www.livejournal.com/~got_to_get_away/
HARDCORE!
she's a fool for the last living rock king
http://www.livejournal.com/~got_to_get_away/
HARDCORE!
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josh. man, this might not help much, but seriously you're pretty young... i can guarantee you thing will look better in the future. trust me, you're grade school friends (if i'm right that you're in grade 8) probably wont mean anything to you two years from now if things get messed up. you'll look back on this and realize it's not nearly as bad as you're making it out to be.. just hang on and let things play out.
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... and you'd think they'd know better than to fire an awesome employee after two years or whatever it's been
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Caitlin, I am not one to sugar coat anything, as you may know, so if this sounds rough or anything, I apologize in advance. The situation you're in needs action. You need to talk to your grandma. If it seems like the reason she's hanging on is for you, then you need to say something to her. She's clearly suffering, and there's no reason for her to continue on like she is. I know, death is a tough thing to deal with, but it's tougher to deal with watching someone you love slowly waste away, and eventually die. It's actually rather soothing to know you had your last moment of peace with someone in an intimate way like the situation you're in right now, rather than to spend your time regretting saying nothing. You may have your doubts now, but once you go to the room, you'll realize it's for the best. You both will cry, and you will cry for a long time, but after you talk to her, you'll feel better about the whole situation. I promise. I watched my grandpa die when I was 6 and was in the same situation as you're in right now. I promise you that you'll feel better talking this out with her, just trust me on this one.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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hell test
i got 25 "you barely make the scale" damn, i'm not going to hell.
i got 25 "you barely make the scale" damn, i'm not going to hell.
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and rob scored a 77
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