An exercise in self-control

megxyz128 · Post by **megxyz128** » 8/9/2003, 6:52 pm

i'll spare everyone the blue font.

my name is megan
my brother and sister's names also start with m's
i am 16 and a senior in high school
i live in michigan and have all my life (including the city, house, etc.)
my dream is to live in san diego, california
i want to travel to denmark and ireland
i hope to become the owner of my own record store
i want to go to MSU, but for financial reasons i can't and that's depressing
i have a group of 4 other friends, we're all really close
we're the group that can be friends with anyone (a.k.a. we aren't really a clique)
i have been in love once in my life, still am actually
i haven't spoken to him for a long time
i recently found out he now has a kid
i have nothing in common with my friends, that depresses me
no one knows me 100%
my mom is an alcoholic i think
i don't really know my dad, they were never married
i wish that i knew people like you guys in real life

wow, i might delete this later, it's weird seeing this all typed out.

Axtech · Post by **Axtech** » 8/9/2003, 6:53 pm

Mechanical Thought wrote:I have been called “Queen’s University Material” by people I hardly know.

That's because you have to move to Kingston so we can hang out.

I might do this eventually, but not right now. I was actually planning on making a thread where I would just spill everything about myself, so this will be easier. But not right now. Maybe never, I don't know.

xoNoDoubt69 · Post by **xoNoDoubt69** » 8/9/2003, 6:54 pm

My name is Melissa
I'm 22 years old.
I lived in the same town for 19 years only moving once in that down a few streets away.
I live bout 5 minutes away from my parents house now.
I live on my own and don't really like it.
I get lonely alot but i'd rather be lonely every day than move back home.
My dad was very emotionally abusive and still is.
One thing that always sticks in my mind is when he would make us cry, he'd just laugh.
My mom has been saying for years she was divorcing him but still hasn't even though all of us kids support that decision.
I don't drive.
I want to drive but i am terrified of failing so i think thats why i keep making excuses.
I have never had a boyfriend or been kissed.
I drink.
But i will never let anyone drive me home if they've been drinking.
I don't smoke cause too many people in my family died from it.
My grandfather died cause of it and I was very close to him.
He's been gone for 5 years now and i still haven't accepted it.
I have a severe form of OCD which requires therapy but i am too scared to go.
Since i moved out it has been a little better but it is still there.
My mom thinks i can just stop but she doesn't understand i can't.
I've had it ever since 7th grade and i think it stemed from when i got left back in 7th grade.
That was a bad experience for me cause all but one of my friends left me after i got left back.
I need to get a job soon.
I'm afraid if i don't I won't be able to afford to live on my own and will be forced to move back home which would be the worst thing ever.
I want to do soemthing in the entertainment industry but i doubt it will never happen.
I want to move to New York City.
Whenever i'm there i'm so happy.
I want to visit so many other countries though. I like traveling.
One of my oldest friends is a bisexual drug addict.
I don't like to hang out with her cause shes always doing drugs so i always make up excuses not to hang out with her.
I have no problem with gay people.
I think its stupid that they have to travel someplace just to get married.
Everyone is different and we should at least accept them.
In high school, i got made fun of a lot.
I still remember everything people made fun of me for and it hurts me to think about it.
I really didn't have too many friends til Senior year.
I am super shy.
I really don't talk much.
Which is probably one of the reasons i don't have a boyfriend.
I am too scared to tell people how i really feel.
And I've learned if people don't like the way i am ,i'm not gonna try and change for them cause i've tried and it doesn't work.

wow i'm supersuprised i wrote all that. Some of that stuff i have never told anyone.

crazyblue32 · Post by **crazyblue32** » 8/9/2003, 6:54 pm

My name is Brianne Marie Arnold.
I hate all parts of my name.
I will be 16 on September 15.
I do not plan on taking my drivers test on my birthday.
But I don't plan on waiting forever, either.
I live in London, Ontario.
I live with my mom, dad, and brother.
My brother is 13.
I hate my dad.
My dad is a creater marketer, and my mom is a nurse.
My favourite colours are black and red.
The walls in my room are blue.
They are covered in my artwork, and posters.
I have posters of Blink182, Green Day, and Weezer.
I am artistic (or so I like to think).
I am school stupid.
I am life smart.
I am religionless, always have been.
I believe that when you die, you are buried and are eaten by bugs for a few years.
I want to be a Funeral Director.
I am not death-focused, although my parents think I am.
I am slightly depressed, but I think I hide it well.
I am a cutter and have scars on my upper left leg only.
I do not drink (often), smoke, or do drugs.
I have smoked pot once before.
I would do it again.
I've never been drunk.
I like socks.
I have 14 pairs of pretty socks.
White, grey, and black socks should be burned.
My fingernails are painted black.
I like to write.
It is a release, much like cutting.
I consider myself bisexual.
But I am much more on the lesbian side, to be honest.
My family doesn't know, but my friends do.
I want a girlfriend.
I had my first boyfriend this year.
It lasted just over a month.
He broke up with me because I'm depressed.
I like being alone.
But I get lonely very easily.
I don't like when people whine or complain.
I like to camp.
I've been in Guiding since I was 4.
I'm now a leader.
I like sucking on limes.
I like spaghetti.
I like putting sour cream on my spaghetti.
I also like dipping my chips in sour cream.
My brother thinks I'm a freak because of this.
I don't play sports.
I tried snowboarding this past winter.
I fell and broke a bone in my back.
I also broke my wrist.
I had to wear an uncomfortable back-brace for 3 months.
People found it amusing to knock on my brace.
I found it painful.
I tried being a vegetarian for 2 months last autumn.
I was sick the entire time.
I get sick a lot.
I take a lot of days off school.
Last year I missed 89 classes.
I'm bored.
I'm tired.
I'm done.

finding emo · Post by **finding emo** » 8/9/2003, 6:56 pm

Mechanical Thought wrote:My name is Caitlin.
I have never been in love, nor even had a boyfriend.
I am ugly, and that is why.

Awwwwwwww!!! I know that it says silently disagree, but I can't take that! You're beautiful, Caitlin! :nod:

(sorry Bethany someone was bound to break the rules I guess

)

superboots · Post by **superboots** » 8/9/2003, 6:58 pm

it doesn't break the rules cause it is a negation of something negative...and a negative and a negative makes a positive...so it's all good :nod:

Axtech · Post by **Axtech** » 8/9/2003, 7:11 pm

Alrighty then...

My name is Robert William Marshall.
I am 17 years old.
Just about to enter grade 12.
I'm trying to decide whether I want to go into psychology or if I want to teach high school social sciences.
I am white, but I have a very dark tan, so I appear to be black to people. It can be aggrivating at times, just because people think I'm something I'm not.
Speaking of which, people often think that I'm gay (or just randomly torment me for it).
I'm straight (and looking, ladies).
I'm overweight.
I'm an introvert (although once I'm very comfortable with people, that can change).
I'm avoidant.
For example, I've spent this summer more or less alone.
I talk to "real" and "online" friends on the net, but have only actually seen one friend "face-to-face" once this summer.
I play video games.
I love to read.
I love music.
I play guitar.
I play mostly OLP stuff on my guitar. My cousin thinks I'm insane for not "widening my playing field" more. I enjoy playing OLP (along with various tracks from other artists), so why would I play stuff I sort of like and only sort of know?
I don't eat vegitables. It's not a conscious decision, though. I'd love to eat veggies with everyone else, but when I try I end up gagging and nearly throwing up. Is it physical? Maybe. Psychological? More likely. Either way I can't eat 'em. Only corn and potatoes.
I like watching The Simpsons (it's on right now and distracting me).
I work in a bakery, cleaning dishes.
My hair is dark black and wavey. It's longish, and I comb it back.
I like playing golf.
Here's where I'd talk about my excessive use of a message board, but you all know that.

I guess that enough for now. I'll splurge more later, maybe.

Solidarity 9-6347 · Post by **Solidarity 9-6347** » 8/9/2003, 7:19 pm

my name is stephanie
i am 18 and about to enter the university of michigan
i am excited for college but apprehensive about my roommates
i am set to be a premed music major
i took 4 years of choir in high school
including spending 2 years in one of the top girl's ensembles in MI
i love to sing and hope i have the chance to join
an a capella group at the university
i am the oldest of 5
but not all my siblings are "whole" siblings
my parents divorced when i was 6
both my parents are re-married and have children with their spouses
my parents are friendly with each other
i had a really hard time when my mom got married to my stepdad
also when she had my first half-sibling
for someone with no huge general disorder, i have a lot of health problems
i also take medications for everything
my friends think my doctors are quacks and i don't need half of what i take
my life is ruled by music...even some of my nervous habits
i have a lot of nervous habits
i have a guitar and try to play it every day
my role models are tori amos and thom yorke
i work as a lifeguard but i despise the sun
i also hate wearing shorts
in the last year i have given more of my attention to politics
i used to be concerned with popularity but now i would just give
anything to be very smart
i dont like emo music nor the message it sends to people
i like to think that i am independant
currently my political views lie with libertarians
i get really annoyed with dumb guys
this leads people to think that i am a pretentious or self-riteous bitch
i would like to think that i am not

Candy-coated Fake · Post by **Candy-coated Fake** » 8/9/2003, 7:19 pm

Wow Rob...you sound a lot like me.

Henrietta · Post by **Henrietta** » 8/9/2003, 7:21 pm

I really like this thread because I now know stuff about all of you that makes you more real, and more relatable.

Woo!

You guys rock.

Mechanical Thought · Post by **Mechanical Thought** » 8/9/2003, 7:29 pm

Finding Emo wrote:
Mechanical Thought wrote:My name is Caitlin.
I have never been in love, nor even had a boyfriend.
I am ugly, and that is why.

Awwwwwwww!!! I know that it says silently disagree, but I can't take that! You're beautiful, Caitlin! (sorry Bethany someone was bound to break the rules I guess )

Coming from you, thats alot. You are one of the best looking people I have seen, to be honest. I respect your opinion, so thanks.

Candy-coated Fake · Post by **Candy-coated Fake** » 8/9/2003, 7:38 pm

Who else can feel the love in this thread? I feel like belting out old pop songs.

Mechanical Thought · Post by **Mechanical Thought** » 8/9/2003, 7:40 pm

I agree

But it can't be bad for the board atmosphere, me thinks.

Henrietta · Post by **Henrietta** » 8/9/2003, 7:41 pm

Caaaan you feeeel the love tonight???

And Caitlin, you are not ugly, and if you say that again I'll beat you w/ an ugly stick so you know what it's like to be ugly

Mechanical Thought · Post by **Mechanical Thought** » 8/9/2003, 7:43 pm

*runs*

Susan · Post by **Susan** » 8/9/2003, 7:47 pm

My name is Susan M. K. Lau.
I am 17 years old and going into my last year of highschool.
I desperately want to get into Waterloo for computer science. I'm willing to break myself in order to get there.
I'm a stick-thin nerd with zits, braces, and thick glasses, and I am proud.
I have a sweet nerdy boyfriend. He's extremely shy (though affectionate) and sometimes doesn't talk much. Conversation between us goes up and down. Right now it's down.
He plays bass guitar and does kick ass funk improv

He also has great taste in music.
I'm pretty introverted. The only reason I have friends in high school is because I was lucky enough to land myself in a class with a group of nerds who share common interests. My boyfriend was the first to speak to me and introduce me to the posse.
I don't think I'm particularly attractive, but I've been told that I was beautiful once.
I hate my school and most of people that go there. I want to graduate and get the hell out of here.
I hate the phone. I speak to people face to face or through IMs. That is all.
I'm and RPG bitch. Pen and paper, text-based, or video game. It doesn't matter.
I spend a lot of time at home. Sometimes my pals get together for video games and a movie.
I play drums and saxophone.
I really want to be the jazz band drummer next year, but I don't practice enough.
The only reason that could ever make me hate a computer is that they're phasing out the comforts of a human presence.
I don't like most vegitables.
I can't swim aside from treading water and puttering around on my back. I can't control my breathing and hated swimming lessons passionately as a kid.
I never watch TV anymore. I see movies fairly often, but TV blows.
I just got a job as a cashier at Canadian Tire. I hope it goes well.
I'm extremely worried about my grades and financial situation before university. I don't want anything to hinder my chances of getting in.
My parents divorced when I was in 4th grade.
My dad went back to college to become a massage therapist. He has his own clinic now. My brother and I lived with my mother. The goverment won't let her work because of her fibromyalgia. My dad was a good guy and paid child support every time. We lived on welfare for a few years and had to rely on the food bank for a while because my mom was sick and bed-ridden. I took care of my brother. Luckily, thing have turned around and my parents are back together and we're doing ok.
Loneliness is most painful to me. I can't stand being lonely.
I will never do drugs, smoke, or drink. I don't see a reason for it. I don't want to harm myself. I'm as straight-edge as they come.
My mom has been drinking a lot more lately, and it makes me concerned. She's had about a 12 of beers a day for the last week and a half. She isn't rowdy or violent when she drinks, but she can get a little confrontative over little things. I'm still concerned either way.
I hate my mom's family. They're all drunks and most of them have spent time in jail. Given the choice, I would sever all connections with them forever. I'm glad my mother is nowhere as bad as they are.
My dad's family is from China. My dad is chinese. My mom's aunt dispises my dad and their marraige. My dad's family is awesome. My grandfather has altzheimer's (sp?) and is in a nursing home now being taken care of.
I wish I could write more. I have lost my creative fuel and I haven't written anything in ages. I'm only able to write when I'm assigned it, like in school.
I feel as thought I'm getting stupider. I don't grasp ideas as well as I used to. It's like the logical part of my brain is dying. I want to fix it.
I'm lazy as hell. It's such a crutch. It's too easy to be lazy. Don't be lazy.
I can't think of anything else to say.

p0tat0 girl · Post by **p0tat0 girl** » 8/9/2003, 8:00 pm

My name is Tanya.
I'm 13.
The only thing I'm actually really good at is snowboarding.
I've never broken a bone...weird...cuz i'm crazy
I am NOT ANNIE!!!!
I'm not a teeny bopper....arrgh justin timberlake and umm..yeah b2k suck.
I'm a hard core olp fan.
I usually have crazy obsessions with guys that have hair like robs. (robcore)
I'm a tomboy.
I'm going into 9th grade.
I want the i miss mike shirt on emtee.org..it totally kicks.
I like making weird stupid stories.
Nobody likes me.
My mom calls me stupid.
My dad is cool though. I'm teaching him to snowboard. He's a nerd but I love him to death.
I've never been 2 an olp concert... :oops:

it's like a sin i know..
I'm jealous of Chantal!
I worship OLP.
I miss emtee. I also love Steve.
I kinda feel bad just writing about myself.
My favorite CMer here is umm....4 some really unknown reason carnival_7.
Weird..i don't even know her.
I have no life.
i'm done...

clumsychild_ · Post by **clumsychild_** » 8/9/2003, 8:04 pm

I found everyone else's fascinating, now i suppose i should do mine. Okay..here we go..

My name is Jessica, Jess or Jessie
I have a strange insecurity with my name, in that I don't know which one I would prefer to be called
Because of this I never know how to introduce myself to new people.
Lately, I've been using Jessica..but i hate it when people call me that, it sounds too formal. :freak:

I'm 16 and going into Grade 11.
I live in Ontario, Canada.
I live with my mum, dad, younger sister and cat.
I like my family usually, but can get very sick of them after long periods of time.
I love my friends very much, they mean so much to me.
I've had pretty much the same group of friends since kindergarten.
Music is a huge part of my life these days, I take my discman everywhere I go.
Almost all my money is spent on CDs.
I would also like to learn how to play guitar.
That was actually one of my goals for this summer, however it didn't really happen.
That brings me to the fact that I am very lazy and I procrastinate a lot.
The only sport I play, and am remotely okay at is soccer.
I'm extremely introverted and somewhat avoidant.
I don't usually like being in new places with lots of people I don't know.
I've never really fit in at school and people tend to ignore me.
I've never been truly depressed, I don't think. But I've had some times like that.
I cry when my parents yell at me.
I've never smoked, drank or done drugs.
I'm straight.
I have no problem with gay people, my best friend is bisexual and i have another gay friend.
I think they should be treated as equals, and allowed to marry.
I have been raised as a Christian, but I have been questioning my religion and I doubt god exists.
I go to church if my mum makes me, but get nothing out of it while i'm there.
I spend way too much time on the computer.
I usually like reading.
I watch some TV.
I have a huge sweet tooth, and don't eat particularly healthy.
I've never had a boyfriend or been kissed.
I'm too shy.
I don't completely despise school, but I don't particularly enjoy it.
I do well at school, but have very little common sense in real life.
I laugh a lot.
I'm clumsy.
I become obsessed over things i really like (ie: OLP).
Spelling errors bother me.
I'm very picking when shopping for clothes.
I would like to live in England for a year.
I love British accents.
My favourite CMers at the moment are Aerin and Axtech.
This is the longest post I've ever made on the CM :lol:

ihatethunderbay · Post by **ihatethunderbay** » 8/9/2003, 8:13 pm

Dammit, why don't you people live in Thunder Bay!! :mad:

You're all way cooler than the people here. Plus you guys like OLP. My friends don't

p0tat0 girl · Post by **p0tat0 girl** » 8/9/2003, 8:19 pm

lol thunderbay...when u told me bout ur avatar now homestar kicks ass hehe