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I'm gonna kill myself.
Some of you probably think I left. But was I ever here to start?
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Brent! don't say things like that!!!


what's wrong, hun?
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Su7an: I bet Duncan can fly. He's just holding out on showing that skill off. 8O
joe_canadian: Yeah, one day at a concert he'll just stop playing and be like
"Yo muthafuckas! Wheeeeee!" and zoom off into the horizon
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Brent! :love:
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Su7an: I bet Duncan can fly. He's just holding out on showing that skill off. 8O
joe_canadian: Yeah, one day at a concert he'll just stop playing and be like
"Yo muthafuckas! Wheeeeee!" and zoom off into the horizon
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I wanna die. I hate life right now, and there's no point in living. That's the matter. There's more details of course. The sad thing is, I actually have tears in my eyes right now.
Some of you probably think I left. But was I ever here to start?
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Brent, you'll be ok. As much shit as I give you, I like ya. Don't do anything stupid, especially over a woman. I know that's like the pot calling the kettle black with me and all, but it's not worth it. I know you're gonna be OK anyways, because if you wanted to die, you'd be dead right now, and you wouldn't go to some one. Usually when people are sick of life, they end it without some one trying to talk them out of it. I know....I almost lost some one who was rather close to me.

Anyways, today was a happy day for me pretty much. I blew a bunch of money on cds. I bought my second copies of the Alkaline Trio/Hot Water Music Split cd, Alkaline Trio's Goddamnit, the Matt Skiba/Kevin Seconds Split cd, and the Mike Felumlee/Dan Andriano Split cd. All involve some one of Alkaline Trio. I also might get a job at my local record store, which would be rather badass if you ask me. I also found me a guitar I am probably buying tomorrow finally. I come home and start listening to the cds I bought, and skanking (because I am cool like that, skanking in my house all alone) and I put on the Matt Skiba cd. Yeah, I heard the song "Next To You" and got all bogged down, and I feel like shit.

For a second I was contemplating on going to Steph's play thing, but when she invited all Detroit CM'ers, that means all Detroit CM'ers excluding Alan, I think. So I am gonna skip that one so I don't end up looking like a stalker, so yeah.

I finally have a date tomorrow night. I am seeing Lauren, the blue haired girl. I have no clue on what we're gonna do, and if anyone has some ideas, let me know, because I am willing to listen. Her boyfriend said it was ok for her to go out with me, so hopefully all goes decently well, so I don't fuck up with yet another woman.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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Post by Susan »

Cheer up Brent. :love: Life only sucks if you let it.
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Post by committed »

boyfriend?????
we are the brand new beatniks. we are the down and outers.
we are the bleeding hearts, beating syncopated, broken rhythm.
our speed is often break neck. we need to slow it down.
tired of being sleepless. tired of being broken.

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Huh?
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Post by Starseed3333 »

OLPFan420 wrote:Her boyfriend said it was ok for her to go out with me, so hopefully all goes decently well, so I don't fuck up with yet another woman.


????

My dad is calling a bass teacher for me tomorrow so I can start lessons. Go me.
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whenyoukissedme wrote:boyfriend?????


I am guessing you're talking about me. Yeah, she has a boyfriend. He's a college drop out and is a carpenter now. Umm, he said that if she finds some one she wants to go out with, for her to go for that guy. Well, she thinks I am something nifty or something, because I am going out with her tomorrow. Yeah, she told her ex and all her friends about me, and that is just a little odd for me, so I am just going to go out with her and smile. I doubt anything will come of this, because of the guy she is with right now, but I wanna see what happens.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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awwwww, Alan, i hope everything goes well for you. blue hair is awesome, but i've said that before... LOL!
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Brent, we love you. please don't do anything stupid. I know life sucks now, but it WILL get better!!!!

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Su7an: I bet Duncan can fly. He's just holding out on showing that skill off. 8O
joe_canadian: Yeah, one day at a concert he'll just stop playing and be like
"Yo muthafuckas! Wheeeeee!" and zoom off into the horizon
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Post by tangledheart »

Yeah, my suggestion is to take a nap. Not that anybody asked.
it's gonna hurt, and i love the pain.
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My mommy came to see me and we went out to eat and went to Espresso Royale :love:
HARDCORE!!!

OMG. I can't believe I din't think fo you
until now because when I think on
a scale of one to ten you're like YWELVE.
No, seriously?

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I met one of my favorite hockey players at a bar!!! He was so nice...yay! :love:
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i had a dream that i was sitting with a bunch of you guys and writing messages in chalk on the sidewalk. :wtf: it was really weird... considering i have never met any of you! :uh: but i have to add, one of you was dressed up like a clown... i don't know whats wrong with me. i think thats when you know you need more sleep.

Without you I'm as good as
dead ...
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^ Strange things like that happen when you view the cm before you go to bed. :lol:

I think I am almost over my temporary 1/6th life crisis. *phew*

My mom said I was going through a "meltdown" or something. :freak:

free floating anxiety = bad.
HARDCORE!!!

OMG. I can't believe I din't think fo you
until now because when I think on
a scale of one to ten you're like YWELVE.
No, seriously?

I <3 my HLP!!!!!
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Post by teelow »

joe_canadian wrote:
teelo wrote:
joe_canadian wrote:I would spring for Vice City, but my POS comp can't run it :mad:



Its on the CPU??? :baaah:


Huh???


Well, is it?!?!??! :baaah:
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Post by Dr. Hobo »

suicide definately isnt the solution brent.. heh.. it tried twice.. heh.. having a tube shoved down your nose isnt fun :crying:

if you need to talk.. msg me on aim/msn/icq whatever and im willing to try and help.. i dunno if im gonna be on for a few more days tho
go fuck yourself.
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yeah, Brent, if you need to talk, I'm going to be on the puter all day (I have to write a few papers)

I seem to be the popular one when it comes to spilling out life stories. :nod:
HARDCORE!!!

OMG. I can't believe I din't think fo you
until now because when I think on
a scale of one to ten you're like YWELVE.
No, seriously?

I <3 my HLP!!!!!
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