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Kathy14 wrote:

nikki4982 wrote::GASP: You couldn't pay me any amount of money to do that.

Also, Tom's new avatar = awesome.

I used to say that too. But lately, I think because I'm quite depressed and bored with life, I've had really strong urges to go skydiving, bungee jumping, etc.

I've been feeling really down lately and thought it would pass but it's just gotten worse. Today, with a wallet full of gift cards, I went to the mall to do some shopping. I went in and out of all my favourite stores but was really distracted about the crap that I'm dealing with right now, and I came home empty handed and in tears

Free money + shopping trip should = one happy Kathy, but now I feel worse than when I left

beautiful liar wrote:thanks sooz *hugs*


and kathy, i know how you feel

What's the matter?

It's a long story. But basically everything is crappy. I've been pushing away all my friends over the last few years as I get uncomfortable when people get too close and make me vulnerable... and it's finally working... my efforts to isolate myself are working. Now I feel really lonely. I've been having awful nightmare flashbacks of stuff. My parents hate me even more than normal. My sister has moved in with her abusive bf and won't talk to me. Work is not going well right now. And the one thing that I can always count on to keep me sane and safe, my marriage... well, we're having problems right now. So it feels like the whole world is falling apart because I have no one to turn to for help or a listening ear. I deal with a lot on a regular basis but I always have my husband to turn to and right now I just... don't have anyone.



Wow... it's hard to type when drinking... I had to put this into Word, correct the green and red underlined stuff, and then paste it back

i'm eatin cheerios.

just so everyonje knows! hahah!

Kathy14 wrote:It's a long story. But basically everything is crappy. I've been pushing away all my friends over the last few years as I get uncomfortable when people get too close and make me vulnerable... and it's finally working... my efforts to isolate myself are working. Now I feel really lonely. I've been having awful nightmare flashbacks of stuff. My parents hate me even more than normal. My sister has moved in with her abusive bf and won't talk to me. Work is not going well right now. And the one thing that I can always count on to keep me sane and safe, my marriage... well, we're having problems right now. So it feels like the whole world is falling apart because I have no one to turn to for help or a listening ear. I deal with a lot on a regular basis but I always have my husband to turn to and right now I just... don't have anyone.



Wow... it's hard to type when drinking... I had to put this into Word, correct the green and red underlined stuff, and then paste it back

from mg's blog and his contributor daniel regelbrugge

Carry all the lessons of your life with you, no matter how burdensome, or painful. Take some comfort where you can, and most of all, stay true to yourself. For this is neither the time for sadness, nor disease. Throw your arms around the new day, and savor the possibilities of the days that stretch before you. This is, most of all, a time to celebrate life. So let it be.

*hugs* When you have the CM, you always have a shoulder to cry on and an ear to that will listen. Or me at least, you can talk to me I will listen, maybe it'll help, maybe not, but the offer is on the table. It does suck to push friends away, I have done that before myself and lets just say that doing that ended very badly and I regret pushing that friend away because now I will never have the chance to fix it. Have you ever thought about trying to reestablish a connection with your friends? It's never to late to do so. I'm sure your parents do not hate you, but you could try to discuss it with them, and if they do hate you well you deserve much better. You are far to good a person to be hated. As for your sister, i'm sorry to hear about her abusive boyfriend but if you can ever talk to her try to reach out for her, one of the methods of abuse is isolation from friends and family, so that might be why she isn't talking to you, nothing personal. Work can be rough, but you are a strong person and you can make it through, is it problems with coworkers? stress? Marriages and relationships all go through rough patches, but you can make it through that as well. Be open and honest with your husband, talk about the problems you two are facing and if neccessary seek marital counselling. Your husband loves you, just as you love him. Oh and drinking doesn't solve much, so try and go easy on that.

awww rusty that was beautiful

*frolics*

i'm glad s wee frolic yo
you're a niceboy

hahahahahahaha i've had too mcuh s
woah

*frolics* You've had too much s eh? Sounds intoxicating.

mhm

ssssssssss

Good post Rusty. Kathy, we're here if you need us. Also, I was watching the VHS of Live @ Much and saw you on the TV. You're gorgeous, you should post more in the CMer's pics thread

too...much...schoolwork...*head explodes*

also my right won't stop freakin' twitching! *smacks eye* stop! twitching! arrgh!!

Matt, stop hitting on Kathy.

Kathy... I'm not too good with words, but... *hugs* I'm sure everything'll get better. Hopefully soon.

La bella María de mi amor.

Aw Kathy, we're here for ya!

Dude I think I have a mood disorder. It's up, down, and around the town so fast people don't know what to do!

Rusty - that was really sweet. Great advice. Thanks *hugs*

Matt - I had tears in my eyes after reading Rusty's post and then yours cracked me up

Everyone - thanks for the support *hugs*

*many more hugs for Kathy!*

saman wrote:also my right won't stop freakin' twitching! *smacks eye* stop! twitching! arrgh!!

Your right won't stop twitching eh?

oh, whoops. i meant my right eye

kinda funny that none of the five posts after mine mentioned that...

It's okay. I was thinking it.

I guessed it was your eye, since you mentioned eye-smacking. It would have been odd if it were the right something else but you decided to smack your eye instead.