
caused by
2. TRYING FRANTICALLY TO LEARN A VICIOUSLY DIFFICULT SONG BEFORE A DEADLINE
which makes you feel hopeless because of
3. THE FACT THAT YOU CAN'T PHYSICALLY DO IT BECAUSE YOU WERE BORN WITH FINGERS THAT ARE SLIGHTLY TOO SHORT
and because of
4a. THE UGLIER FACT, WHICH IS THAT YOU QUIT PIANO FOR TWO YEARS AND PICKED IT UP AGAIN RECENTLY ONLY TO BITE OFF WAY MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW WITH A PROJECT LIKE THIS, ESPECIALLY SINCE PEOPLE ARE EXPECTING SO MUCH OF YOU, PEOPLE SUCH AS
4b. YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU OVERESTIMATE YOUR ABILITIES
and
4c. OTHER GENUINELY TALENTED MUSICIANS WHO ACTUALLY WANT TO WORK WITH YOU, AND THEY ARE PEOPLE YOU'D BE HONOURED TO PLAY WITH
and most importantly, due to
5. the fact that you're too fucking stubborn and egotistic to back out of any of this shit.