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its4am_isanybodyhome wrote:so..this guy matt.
we were going out for 15 months and then we broke up. well, we are technically "taking a break." he needs to sort out some shit going on in his head, he says. you changed me so fast when i met you i need to let it catch up with me, he says. but i thought i changed you for the better, i say. you did, he says. i'm SUPER FUCKING CONFUSED, i say. i miss him a lot. and we still talk. but it's so awkward now. and i still love him.

I had been dating a guy for almost three years and he broke up with me at the beginning of the summer. He was just about to graduate high school and was going through weirdness...we kept in touch and then a little over a month ago he asked me back out and it's been the best thing ever - we're more mature about everything now and really realize we're right for each other. He just really needed to sort through things. So maybe there is goodness in your future.

or endless rage
and possibly vehicular homicide

life's a pretty strange fruit.

dream in japanese wrote:no no, at least those ones are trying to change. the ones not in rehab are the ones to steer clear from.

no no, that's not even close. The one's in rehab are the one's who've had tons of problems all ready and you already know they're going to have way more problems in the future. Even if they do temporarily overcome an addiction.

i have an addiction.

i am so tired of ups and downs and trying to analyze this relationship and knowing that it's fucked but not being ready to say goodbye. i just wish i had something else going on in my life right now so i could think about something else.

Gimme_Shelter wrote:i have an addiction.

...to friction?

maybe

laurel wrote:*mutters* breakups suck. i just broke up with my boyfriend of two and a half years...mind you, it's a breakup for good.
but we do still talk. and we talk about how we miss each other, and how hard it is. it's a very odd situation. everytime he comes over, we end up hugging like crazy..and. i don't know.

point of this response: i sorta know what you're going through.

in other news, i'm becoming a hermit.

I thought you were gonna join the monkhood with me?

Hey I do believe I was in on this deal too Rooster boy.

thirdhour wrote:i am so tired of ups and downs and trying to analyze this relationship and knowing that it's fucked but not being ready to say goodbye. i just wish i had something else going on in my life right now so i could think about something else.

Ref soccer again! Or go out and meet people. It will take your mind off of things.

laurel wrote:
in other news, i'm becoming a hermit.

woohoo...i'm a hermit tooo

So am I!

me too

I'm a self-imposed hermit, due to my lack of transportation (and that won't be changing until the new year most probably), save anything within walking distance.

What happened Yannic? Did he not follow through on Friday?

I wish I was a hugger. People, especially guys, think I don't like them because I don't just walk right up them and give them hugs, like so many other girls do. If you give the guys hugs, then you don't necessarily like them. But if you DON'T, then there's no way you do. It's weird.

He didn't technically follow through, but he did enough to satisfy me. We had a really great night on Saturday, with none of the tension we've been having recently. Then we started talking and realized that both of us were starting to feel like this was forced, like we were going through the motions because that's what we knew to do, but it seemed like we were more just friends than boyfriend/girlfriend.

Basically our lives are going in such different directions, but neither of us wants to say goodbye because we've had such a great past. We both knew this day would come, but I don't want it to be here so soon.

let it go.
i'm currently going through an extremely hard time, because of my break up. i put off breaking up with him for such a long time, because our past was so good..i thought it would start to be like that again. it only kept getting worse..
i'm honestly perfectly miserable now without him. but. but but but. knowing how my life will be, once i'm able to move on from this, is keeping me going. i know that i'll be better off in the long run, and much happier. even though i'm super sad right now, i'm happy that i'm able to be me, and i'm out of a relationship that was going nowhere.

it'll hurt like hell, yannic, but it'll be worth it.