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it's not, actually.
i'm taking her to disneyland in april. you'd think that'd be enough. but nooooo :p
guys, you can't dump on christmas cuz you're single. I spent at least half my christmases without a hot girlfriend and i still loved the holiday.
your girlfriend, or lack thereof, cannot comprise your happiness, lest you risk never being happy.
i'm taking her to disneyland in april. you'd think that'd be enough. but nooooo :p
guys, you can't dump on christmas cuz you're single. I spent at least half my christmases without a hot girlfriend and i still loved the holiday.
your girlfriend, or lack thereof, cannot comprise your happiness, lest you risk never being happy.
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It just adds to the sucking of the holiday. I mean, I had someone to talk to on Christmas and visit each of the past three years, which was comforting considering I live with horrible people and all. This year, I actually have to put up with people, and I don't like it. I will have no one to converse to, no one to hug me, nothing. It's not that being alone makes the holiday suck, the fact that I have to go through the holiday makes the holiday suck. I just want someone to talk to, that's it.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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Internet text hugs mean nothing to me. I just want to hear someone's voice that isn't in yelling mode. That's all I fucking want this year.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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superboots wrote:i like christmas but it just isn't the same anymore.i think it's cause i grew up and moved out of the house.
it's even going to be weirder this year because my mom got married and we moved out of the house that i grew up in.


I did Christmas dinner and presents with my friends yesterday and it was really nice. And I like having my tree and lights too. And some time off work. So it's not all bad.
Open your eyes to nights and days, you close them up and float away
and somehow inbetween you've got to master lying to yourself
you back the cause, get out of school, you get a job, the job gets you
and somehow every day you end up serving somebody else
now if that ain't panic that you're feeling, then you damn well better start
you can drive it into that head of yours with the hammer in your heart.
And it's alriiiiiiiight now, take the world and make it yours again.
and somehow inbetween you've got to master lying to yourself
you back the cause, get out of school, you get a job, the job gets you
and somehow every day you end up serving somebody else
now if that ain't panic that you're feeling, then you damn well better start
you can drive it into that head of yours with the hammer in your heart.
And it's alriiiiiiiight now, take the world and make it yours again.
Haha. What are you talking about? Internet hugs rock. ...yah.
I'm supposed to do Christmas lunch with some friends tomorrow...but I really don't want to cause I did Christmas dinner w/ my best friend last night and I'm kind of sick of these friends. I guess I should just do it, seeing how it's Christmas and all.
I'm supposed to do Christmas lunch with some friends tomorrow...but I really don't want to cause I did Christmas dinner w/ my best friend last night and I'm kind of sick of these friends. I guess I should just do it, seeing how it's Christmas and all.
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Ack. I'm so bored and my tree is soo full of presents. I want it to be Christmas Eve.
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Its not so much the fakeness of it all, its more so going through it all that makes me hate all this holiday shit.
My family is a little eyone dysfunctional and I can't stand being around either household for a long period of time so around the holidays when you are supposed to love and appriciate your family makes me want to hurl. Its all such bullshit. What kind of Christmas is it when no one knows you well enough to know what to get, and you have to spend christmas at one really empty house and another at a really hate filled one. No one pays attention to anyone else they are just looking for mistakes and reasons for hate. Is so frustrating. And since its fucking christmas you HAVE to pretend to be happy. It seems to be what the season is about. Pretending. Fuck I hate it all.
My family is a little eyone dysfunctional and I can't stand being around either household for a long period of time so around the holidays when you are supposed to love and appriciate your family makes me want to hurl. Its all such bullshit. What kind of Christmas is it when no one knows you well enough to know what to get, and you have to spend christmas at one really empty house and another at a really hate filled one. No one pays attention to anyone else they are just looking for mistakes and reasons for hate. Is so frustrating. And since its fucking christmas you HAVE to pretend to be happy. It seems to be what the season is about. Pretending. Fuck I hate it all.
-Sarah
Goodbye you liar,
Well you sipped from the cup but you don't own up to anything
Then you think you will inspire
Take apart your head
(and I wish I could inspire)
Take apart your demons, then you add it to the list.
Goodbye you liar,
Well you sipped from the cup but you don't own up to anything
Then you think you will inspire
Take apart your head
(and I wish I could inspire)
Take apart your demons, then you add it to the list.
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Random Name wrote:My family is a little eyone dysfunctional and I can't stand being around either household for a long period of time so around the holidays when you are supposed to love and appriciate your family makes me want to hurl. Its all such bullshit. What kind of Christmas is it when no one knows you well enough to know what to get, and you have to spend christmas at one really empty house and another at a really hate filled one. No one pays attention to anyone else they are just looking for mistakes and reasons for hate. Is so frustrating. And since its fucking christmas you HAVE to pretend to be happy. It seems to be what the season is about. Pretending. Fuck I hate it all.

~Emily
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow]

[glow=#0000ff] "I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to." [/glow]
[glow=#6400ff]"Are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?[/glow]

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