The CM Dream Journal

Waiting to Exist · Post by **Waiting to Exist** » 9/1/2005, 1:45 pm

Nikki might not have, I lost track of her after our phone call.

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/2/2005, 1:14 am

Don't worry, I didn't! I found you and we danced synchronizedly!!!

Rusty · Post by **Rusty** » 9/2/2005, 6:12 pm

Yay!!

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/2/2005, 7:30 pm

Sonya · Post by **Sonya** » 9/8/2005, 8:58 am

i just had a very strange yet cute dream where OLP had gone crazy and scheduled a concert a my school. for some odd reason they had to cancel that night (i DO remember a lot of joints floating around, :lol:

) and they needed a place to stay. raine stayed at my other house (apparantly. and it looked strangely familiar), and he had rowan and lucca with him. he gave them to me while he was in the bathroom or something, and i was just having so much fun poking them around and hugging them, and oh, they were just so cute.

and actually, the rest of my dream was just me playing with the babies. i woke up all giggly and maternal and stuff. :love:

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/8/2005, 8:09 pm

Heeeeeeee babies!! :love:

joe_canadian · Post by **joe_canadian** » 9/14/2005, 1:52 pm

I had a dream in which Claire had covered her face in shaving cream and she absolutely refused to take it off.

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/14/2005, 1:53 pm

beautiful liar · Post by **beautiful liar** » 9/14/2005, 3:59 pm

that wasnt a dream.

thirdhour · Post by **thirdhour** » 9/18/2005, 6:03 pm

I had the scariest dream ever a few nights ago. It wasn't like a nightmare per se, more like a psychological mind game-type deal. Either way, it was a very frightening experience.

The dream starts out with my boyfriend, and somehow, it had become his responsibility to dispose of a body of someone (I never found out who) that his brother had killed in what I believed to be a drug deal gone wrong. He was scared and worried, but didn't talk about it much, just tried to get me to help him to get rid of the body. I came up with a few suggestions, but I didn't really know what to do. Then as the dream went on, he became more and more demanding and seemed to blame me for the stress that the situation was giving him. I tried to calm him down, because it wasn't like him at all to be like that, but he just kept getting more and more agitated. As this went on, it seemed like he was letting things slip, like he had been covering something up and was getting sloppy because he was getting so angry. To make things worse, whenever I tried to get help from anyone, they all just told me that I should have expected this, as if they had been warning me about Harley from the beginning. I just didn't understand, because he's normally such a quiet person that's easily hurt, but suddenly he wasn't the kid I knew, he was a controlling, violent man, trying to force me to take responsibility for the body. I tried pleading with him to calm down, but he just ignored me, as if I meant nothing to him.

Next thing I knew, I was in this clinic and someone was trying to convince me that I had killed my own baby. I was so confused, but I knew it couldn't be true, so I started to fight back against what they were saying. Suddenly it occurred to me that it was all a big lie, because it had only been six months at the most, and there's no way I could have gotten pregnant. Then I realized they had my brother Seamus in the room next to me, so we left to go find Harley. He was in this factory that he seemed to control, but it seemed to be having some major problems, so he didn't seem to be concerned with me in the slightest as I followed him around, screaming at him to give me some answers. Finally he turned to me and started laughing at me, as if my desperation was no concern of his. The fact that we had been dating for months, and knew all each other's secrets meant nothing to him. He continued to laugh, even as I threatened to tell his most devastating secret, and said, "You really think all that still matters?" I tried to get at him, to fight him, but me and Seamus were being taken away.

Next thing I know, me and Seamus were at the edge of the river, and my and Harley's friend Tycko was there. I tried to question him about Harley, about why we were there, but he just ignored me and started telling this really emotional story in a really monotonous tone of voice about how he had grown up on that river, and how the people that had lived there had depended on the river, as if he was attempting to explain himself, almost as an apology to me. Seamus and I looked at each other, and suddenly in that moment of calm, I understood what had happened. The person I thought was Harley never really was the Harley Knife I knew. He was the leader of some undercover operation (I never did find out what he was trying to achieve), and had pretended to be a naive 18 year old in order to get me under his control so he could frame me for the original murder. When I started to know too much, he realized I wasn't worth the trouble, and drugged me and tried to convince me that I had somehow gotten pregnant. After that failed, he decided to have Tycko kill me and Seamus because I meant so little to him. Tycko wasn't the pure evil that Harley was; instead he was more of an underling of Harley's power. I knew I could outwit Tycko, but really, there was nothing I could do, because even though he didn't really want to have to kill me, he was so numb that he didn't really care.

The dream ends there, so I never found out how I was going to be killed, but that wasn’t even the scary part. What was most terrifying was the thought that there was always a possibility that the people you think you know are really nothing like they seem to be, that my relationship could mean absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things, and that my emotional involvement with this person could be some big pretence…that’s devastating.

He just laughed in my face because I thought he had ever loved me.
:crying:

*shivers* thank god it was only a dream.

starseed_10 · Post by **starseed_10** » 9/18/2005, 6:11 pm

that is so messed up.

and people in BC have the craziest names, i swear

Rusty · Post by **Rusty** » 9/18/2005, 8:33 pm

I had another dream where someone was giving me a dream, but this time she didn't give me the kid and run. Let me start at the beginning.

I was wandering i suppose, it was all dark, I couldn't see anything. But then my friends girlfriend came into view at least I think it was her, I couldn't see her face I just knew who it was. Then she told me that she was pregant. My first reaction was OMG It's mine, then I realised that wasn't possible. Then my friend came and suddenly his dad showed up too and asked him if he was able to get married to in a Catholic church because his girlfriend was pregant. Which was odd because his girlfriend is catholic not him. Anyway, he said they could because he has asked her dad earlier and he said they would be able to. Then they all dissapeared and I was with this new girl, but I couldn't see her face again. Once again she told me she was pregnant and that it was my child. I was about to deny it again but it felt so right. She said she loved me and that we were going to be a family. My first impulse was to say it was impossible (partially because I couldn't see her face still) but then I just felt so warm, and comfortable. I felt loved, and I didn't want to lose it, so I just curled up beside this mysterious girl that was having my baby according to her. Then my friends from earlier in the dream came and they were smiling at me. Then we all started talking about the fun things we could do, and how are kids would become friends. It seemed like life was so perfect for everyone in that dream.

Then I woke and was convinced that I had a child out there. Then I remembered I don't and that I'm single. It was rather saddening to wake up actually.

Waiting to Exist · Post by **Waiting to Exist** » 9/19/2005, 1:14 am

I had a dream where I went to a CM meetup. This was a couple nights ago, so I can't remember many details, except that we met at a mix of a restaurant and a Japanese rock garden, and Nikki was really old. I was like, "What the hell?? They were jokes!"

I think Afe was there, too, but I'm probably just lying.

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/19/2005, 1:31 am

Jokes, eh? That's what you think!

<-- that's actually my granddaughter!!!

Waiting to Exist · Post by **Waiting to Exist** » 9/19/2005, 1:33 am

:O Monkey will be heartbroke.

nikki4982 · Post by **nikki4982** » 9/19/2005, 7:11 am

He's old, too, fool!!

Rusty · Post by **Rusty** » 9/19/2005, 5:14 pm

I'm fairly sure I had a dream where a beloved childhood teddy bear was telling me to rape someone.

So anyway, I had this dream where I was watching this girl, from above kind of like a bird of prey. Then I heard this voice, and it was like "rape her!" So I'm like "NO! I would never do that, where's that coming from?" So the whole dream place spins around and I'm standing to this dark figure, and it repeats the the command, again i said no. Then I could see the figure and it was a teddy bear I had when I was little, except it was the same size as me. So I was like "Hey I know you!" Then it repeated the command, so I screamed NO! Then it called me a son of a bitch and beat the crap out of me.

At least I think that's what happened, I can't remember it to well. But it was pretty damn fucked up.

afealicious · Post by **afealicious** » 9/19/2005, 5:26 pm

nikki4982 wrote::lol: Jokes, eh? That's what you think!

<-- that's actually my granddaughter!!!

yeah, and how many times do i have to tell you, MY NAME IS JASON WONG :mad:

:mad::mad:

nobody believes me :crying:

thirdhour · Post by **thirdhour** » 9/20/2005, 2:43 pm

starseed_10 wrote::lol: that is so messed up.

and people in BC have the craziest names, i swear

Yannic, Seamus, Harley and Tycko combined couldn't produce the insanity that is "Brett".

Freak.

afealicious · Post by **afealicious** » 9/20/2005, 5:41 pm