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I made a CD tonight of the most depressing music I could find. My depressed mood got worse today when I was almost fired for "not mopping the floor good enough Thursday night". Then I had to tell my whore of a supervisor why she shouldn't have me fired.

everybody has shit happen to them. i want those of you who think i'm full of it to tell me what has happened to you that is so bad, keeping in mind that the following has happened to me:

i flunked out of school. i've been reamed out at work. dumped by my first big crush. i've been beat up before. i've been chased by creeps before.

my 3 year old sister drowned when i was six. she fell of the same pier as the one i was fishing on and i didn't even notice.

i've been unpopular. i've been in a car accident. i've disappointed practically everyone i know at some point or another.

if you think i don't know about teenager's problems, then you're ignorant. everybody knows about teenager's problems, because we all have them.

you only have one life to live. wouldn't it be nice for you to say that you've lived it as somebody who overcame adversity instead of somebody who buckled before it?

i can't understand people who'd rather be miserable.

PS. Caitlin. I didn't really get to hang out with you as much as i'd have liked but i did talk to you a fair bit on AIM and it was always my impression that you were not an unhappy person. I am not trying to make light of your condintion. I am simply expressing my POV on the so-called 'emo' kids.

tangledheart wrote:Whatever.

ok. do like doug said.

tell us what makes your life so bad.

Xavier870 wrote:I made a CD tonight of the most depressing music I could find. My depressed mood got worse today when I was almost fired for "not mopping the floor good enough Thursday night". Then I had to tell my whore of a supervisor why she shouldn't have me fired.

see. this proves my "sad because you want to be" idea. if you wanted to not be sad, you'd listen to happy music.

is it that you don't want to feel better?

i know about feeling ugly as i stated in my earlier post. but you know what?

i hate that feeling. i'd much rather be cheerful. there's nothing wrong with having fun and laughter instead of moping around and being down on yourself.

overcome. adversity.

no buckling.

if you wanted to not be sad, you'd listen to happy music

like WEEN.

If I was listening to happy music, I wouldn't be able to sing along. I sing along when I listen to music. Even if I don't know the words. Plus, I can't listen to happy music when I'm sad. It makes it worse. I sit there and think to myself "they're happy, why aren't I?"

blissful unconsciousness!

Oh shitballs sunday. I'm working tomorrow. I forgot. Now I have to drag my ass out of bed at 7. I need a vacation........ or a night out. A concert. A carnival. A good book. Any of those would work.

what about sex?

i could really go for a blow job about now. ha!

that guy knows what i'm talking about. ha!

we all need a vacation, we all do.

everyone is being so productive, and I'm not.

what's going on with us?!?!

YourJesus wrote:what about sex?

i could really go for a blow job about now. ha!

that guy knows what i'm talking about. ha!

Have you ever read "Franny and Zooey?" I think I'm slowly turning into Franny.

This is scary, very scary.

well, basically, she's a college student that was all pretentious when she was a child, and starts questioning things and has a nervous breakdown or something. It's a reallyt good book.