Posted: 11/7/2004, 2:21 pm
cynicalprincessx: talk
Random Like Me: i dont know what to talk to you about.
Random Like Me: i am talking to matt. and i am telling him stuff. because he has given me a reason to put a lot of trust in him because he wont go around bashing me when he knows i have a lot of problems within myself.
cynicalprincessx: I dont want to bash you either, i have no reason to, you never stole from me or did anything to hurt me
Random Like Me: i really dont want to talk if this is just going to lead to you yelling at me for not telling the truth, when i have.
cynicalprincessx: I just want to know why
Random Like Me: and i wish i knew the reason why.
Random Like Me: but i dont either.
cynicalprincessx: Who is the girl in the pictures?
Random Like Me: i keep telling you...a girl that i used to be good friends with. the two of us used to post stuff together. the election picture is old, all of the pictures are old.
cynicalprincessx: Did she really have cancer?
Random Like Me: she did, but not until a month later.
Random Like Me: she got it in december of last year. and died from it in late august.
cynicalprincessx: Did she know what you were doing?
Random Like Me: she did it with me, which i've told matt about.
Random Like Me: there are bits of us in both of that. the part about my father...was the part about my father.
Random Like Me: and the part about cancer was hers. together, we both posted stuff to share our perspectives. it was wrong, i know.
cynicalprincessx: But if she died, why did you keep it up?
Random Like Me: because i really didn't want people to know that she died. and part of me didn't want to let her die. i guess.
Random Like Me: that sounds twisted enough.
cynicalprincessx: I can understand that
cynicalprincessx: Not wanting to let someone die
Random Like Me: and then i thought that letting whoever we created die, was letting her die altogether...when from being with her, she still had so many thoughts to share that she never got a chance to.
cynicalprincessx: Yeah
cynicalprincessx: Theres one part i dont understand
cynicalprincessx: Why did you post other peoples work on your real livejournal
Random Like Me: that i have no clue.
Random Like Me: its just something you do because you can??
Random Like Me: i dont really know
cynicalprincessx: Did you show the work to the teacher or whoever
Random Like Me: nope, i just said that.
Random Like Me: because i could.
cynicalprincessx: Do you regret it?
Random Like Me: of course i do.
Random Like Me: wouldnt you if you really made some people angry and offended over something you really didnt mean to do?
cynicalprincessx: Yeah
cynicalprincessx: but did it ever ocurr to you that plagirasim would be something that would anger people?
Random Like Me: i honestly thought no one would ever know.
Random Like Me: and you know everyone does stuff when they know they wont get caught.
cynicalprincessx: Yeah.
Random Like Me: we all do that.
cynicalprincessx: Did you actually publish anything?
Random Like Me: nope
Random Like Me: well i published something i wrote once... but it was about a story i wrote from the second person.
cynicalprincessx: But was it yours?
Random Like Me: yes
Random Like Me: completely mine.
Random Like Me: i promise that, although i have no idea where the story got to.
Random Like Me: who is this anyway.
cynicalprincessx: A random CMer
cynicalprincessx: No one special
Random Like Me: yes. i really just want people to leave me alone, so i can learn from my mistakes.
Random Like Me: i dont want people iming me anymore to tell me how wrong i am. because i already know that.
cynicalprincessx: I havent said that at all
cynicalprincessx: I'm just kindof bewildered by the whole affair
Random Like Me: most people have. which is kind of why im sick of getting ims from people.
Random Like Me: but there is really nothing else i can explain.
cynicalprincessx: I see
Random Like Me: i really just want to be left alone.
cynicalprincessx: Are you quitting the CM?
Random Like Me: yes.
Random Like Me: i am quitting everything of the sort.
cynicalprincessx: I see
cynicalprincessx: Who was Cain?
Random Like Me: her boyfriend. he was real nice.
cynicalprincessx: Why did Cain morph?
Random Like Me: he doesnt think he will ever date again, which is kind of sad.
Random Like Me: cain at first was my boyfriend...and then her boyfriend. we never shared his real name.
Random Like Me: he first one is Alex, the second one Stryker. we were like "ehhh wahtever." haha
cynicalprincessx: So it was two different people but you used the alias "Cain" for both of them?
Random Like Me: yes
Random Like Me: because we never really wanted to share their names.
Random Like Me: do you think people will ever just leave me alone. that is all i am asking for.
cynicalprincessx: Well, i think that alot of people are very very very upset
cynicalprincessx: Especially if you took their poems and thoughts
Random Like Me: and they have a reason to be so
Random Like Me: but at the same time, i deleted everything to undo what i could do.
Random Like Me: and then i try to just be like "look you leave me alone, i leave you alone."
Random Like Me: but no one will listen to that.
Random Like Me: people doing anything to me wont change how they feel upset.
cynicalprincessx: But it might let them feel a release
Random Like Me: i really dont think it will
cynicalprincessx: Do you not think they're entitled?
Random Like Me: they're entitled
Random Like Me: but at the same time...cant they do it privately to me
Random Like Me: but they have to let everyone aware of my aim sn, my freaking student email.
Random Like Me: that is the wrong way to go about doing this.
cynicalprincessx: Well some people wanted to post your phone number and adress
Random Like Me: whoa thats real nice.
cynicalprincessx: They wont.
cynicalprincessx: I dont think thats right.
cynicalprincessx: It wasnt very nice to string alot of decent people on and on for 2.5 years though
cynicalprincessx: Are you telling the truth about the pictures of "Val"?
Random Like Me: i am.
cynicalprincessx: So they are all of your friend who died of cancer in august of 2004?
Random Like Me: yes.
cynicalprincessx: Do you swear to god?
cynicalprincessx: because what is bothering alot of people is the fact that the girl could be anywhere if you're lying.
cynicalprincessx: I think alot of people would leave you alone, if they just knew who the real girl was
Random Like Me: i am swearing to God
cynicalprincessx: Can you give any proof?
Random Like Me: i really cant.
Random Like Me: her obituary used to be online. but here they delete them after a month or two.
Random Like Me: i dont know what to talk to you about.
Random Like Me: i am talking to matt. and i am telling him stuff. because he has given me a reason to put a lot of trust in him because he wont go around bashing me when he knows i have a lot of problems within myself.
cynicalprincessx: I dont want to bash you either, i have no reason to, you never stole from me or did anything to hurt me
Random Like Me: i really dont want to talk if this is just going to lead to you yelling at me for not telling the truth, when i have.
cynicalprincessx: I just want to know why
Random Like Me: and i wish i knew the reason why.
Random Like Me: but i dont either.
cynicalprincessx: Who is the girl in the pictures?
Random Like Me: i keep telling you...a girl that i used to be good friends with. the two of us used to post stuff together. the election picture is old, all of the pictures are old.
cynicalprincessx: Did she really have cancer?
Random Like Me: she did, but not until a month later.
Random Like Me: she got it in december of last year. and died from it in late august.
cynicalprincessx: Did she know what you were doing?
Random Like Me: she did it with me, which i've told matt about.
Random Like Me: there are bits of us in both of that. the part about my father...was the part about my father.
Random Like Me: and the part about cancer was hers. together, we both posted stuff to share our perspectives. it was wrong, i know.
cynicalprincessx: But if she died, why did you keep it up?
Random Like Me: because i really didn't want people to know that she died. and part of me didn't want to let her die. i guess.
Random Like Me: that sounds twisted enough.
cynicalprincessx: I can understand that
cynicalprincessx: Not wanting to let someone die
Random Like Me: and then i thought that letting whoever we created die, was letting her die altogether...when from being with her, she still had so many thoughts to share that she never got a chance to.
cynicalprincessx: Yeah
cynicalprincessx: Theres one part i dont understand
cynicalprincessx: Why did you post other peoples work on your real livejournal
Random Like Me: that i have no clue.
Random Like Me: its just something you do because you can??
Random Like Me: i dont really know
cynicalprincessx: Did you show the work to the teacher or whoever
Random Like Me: nope, i just said that.
Random Like Me: because i could.
cynicalprincessx: Do you regret it?
Random Like Me: of course i do.
Random Like Me: wouldnt you if you really made some people angry and offended over something you really didnt mean to do?
cynicalprincessx: Yeah
cynicalprincessx: but did it ever ocurr to you that plagirasim would be something that would anger people?
Random Like Me: i honestly thought no one would ever know.
Random Like Me: and you know everyone does stuff when they know they wont get caught.
cynicalprincessx: Yeah.
Random Like Me: we all do that.
cynicalprincessx: Did you actually publish anything?
Random Like Me: nope
Random Like Me: well i published something i wrote once... but it was about a story i wrote from the second person.
cynicalprincessx: But was it yours?
Random Like Me: yes
Random Like Me: completely mine.
Random Like Me: i promise that, although i have no idea where the story got to.
Random Like Me: who is this anyway.
cynicalprincessx: A random CMer
cynicalprincessx: No one special
Random Like Me: yes. i really just want people to leave me alone, so i can learn from my mistakes.
Random Like Me: i dont want people iming me anymore to tell me how wrong i am. because i already know that.
cynicalprincessx: I havent said that at all
cynicalprincessx: I'm just kindof bewildered by the whole affair
Random Like Me: most people have. which is kind of why im sick of getting ims from people.
Random Like Me: but there is really nothing else i can explain.
cynicalprincessx: I see
Random Like Me: i really just want to be left alone.
cynicalprincessx: Are you quitting the CM?
Random Like Me: yes.
Random Like Me: i am quitting everything of the sort.
cynicalprincessx: I see
cynicalprincessx: Who was Cain?
Random Like Me: her boyfriend. he was real nice.
cynicalprincessx: Why did Cain morph?
Random Like Me: he doesnt think he will ever date again, which is kind of sad.
Random Like Me: cain at first was my boyfriend...and then her boyfriend. we never shared his real name.
Random Like Me: he first one is Alex, the second one Stryker. we were like "ehhh wahtever." haha
cynicalprincessx: So it was two different people but you used the alias "Cain" for both of them?
Random Like Me: yes
Random Like Me: because we never really wanted to share their names.
Random Like Me: do you think people will ever just leave me alone. that is all i am asking for.
cynicalprincessx: Well, i think that alot of people are very very very upset
cynicalprincessx: Especially if you took their poems and thoughts
Random Like Me: and they have a reason to be so
Random Like Me: but at the same time, i deleted everything to undo what i could do.
Random Like Me: and then i try to just be like "look you leave me alone, i leave you alone."
Random Like Me: but no one will listen to that.
Random Like Me: people doing anything to me wont change how they feel upset.
cynicalprincessx: But it might let them feel a release
Random Like Me: i really dont think it will
cynicalprincessx: Do you not think they're entitled?
Random Like Me: they're entitled
Random Like Me: but at the same time...cant they do it privately to me
Random Like Me: but they have to let everyone aware of my aim sn, my freaking student email.
Random Like Me: that is the wrong way to go about doing this.
cynicalprincessx: Well some people wanted to post your phone number and adress
Random Like Me: whoa thats real nice.
cynicalprincessx: They wont.
cynicalprincessx: I dont think thats right.
cynicalprincessx: It wasnt very nice to string alot of decent people on and on for 2.5 years though
cynicalprincessx: Are you telling the truth about the pictures of "Val"?
Random Like Me: i am.
cynicalprincessx: So they are all of your friend who died of cancer in august of 2004?
Random Like Me: yes.
cynicalprincessx: Do you swear to god?
cynicalprincessx: because what is bothering alot of people is the fact that the girl could be anywhere if you're lying.
cynicalprincessx: I think alot of people would leave you alone, if they just knew who the real girl was
Random Like Me: i am swearing to God
cynicalprincessx: Can you give any proof?
Random Like Me: i really cant.
Random Like Me: her obituary used to be online. but here they delete them after a month or two.