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happeninfish wrote:exquisite

thank you

A quickie.

Photo

Click, click, click, flash
picture's taken
now it's in the past
so is our love
Too fleeting and too fast.

this came to me last night, i don't really like it, it feels too cliché (and the fact that my poetic talents are quite bad doesn't help)

and all i want is
life without death
but when your words
pierce my heart
you bring me
death without
life

How dare you break wind before me!

I'm sorry, babe, I didn't know it was your turn...

Pardon me for being rude
It wasn't me it was my food
It just popped up to say hello
And now it's gone back down below.

No words need be said
The silence is all too clear
I can tell you're done with me
Leaving me to face my fears

Of let you go
Of saying goodbye
And losing your love
In a blink of an eye

of someone else
with your heart
And being with you
When the morning starts

Of someone else
putting a smile on your face
So soon, so easy
Was I to replace

Of someone else
making you burn with desire
When it used to be me
Who lit your fire

All I wanted
Was for you to see
How much that
You meant to me

But I guess that was
The wrong thing to do
For now I live
My days without you

Some say if you love somebody
You have to let them go
And if they love you too
They'll be back before you know

But I've love so much
And I loved so hard
But my loves never come back
My heart left in broken shards

That must mean
That I've no love in my life
My heart to be forever
Scared by love's dull knife

Sometimes to live
Something must die
So I guess I must
Say goodbye

I'll hold you close
Till the end of time
You will always be in my heart
Though you will never be mine

I love you
And I always will
My love will last
Until my heart is still

that was umm... deep... i'm gonna go cry

K, so i'm not that good, but i try, it's just me putting how i feel on paper...or in this case on a screen.

Second to all, first to none,
No new feeling not just begun.
My family loves me, but it seems that it,
With nobody else willing to commit.
Takes too much effort, too much of their time.
Why, am I not important, or is it all in my mind?
I hate myself today, just like yesterday,
Annoying, fat and ugly how can it be okay?
Try as you may, it's a waste of your time
Everything will be the same, why tell myself a lie?
Take a long look at me, if you're lucky it's ur last,
Time to hide behind all i can, like a cruel ugly mask.
Mocked when i'm young, ditched when I'm old,
And you all wonder why i can't be bold.
Around certain people, I can be the real me,
They put a smile on my face, make me truly happy,
I come out from hiding, taking time to breathe
They make it known they miss me when i leave.
The feeling does only last so long, I wish it could stay
Time to go back to the mask and once again say
I hate myself today, just like yesterday,
Annoying, fat and ugly how can it be okay?
Try as you may, it's a waste of your time
Everything will be the same, why tell myself a lie?
Take a long look at me, if you're lucky it's ur last,
Time to hide behind all i can, like a cruel ugly mask.
They tell me their my friends, all the places we can go,
But when the time comes to plan, all I hear is no,
I'm busy already, or I have somewhere to be,
I'm not that stupid, somebody already told me
You don't really like me, you never really did
You just put up with me like a bratty little kid.
The hurt in my heart, the smirks on their faces
Why didnt' i see it, there were so many traces!
It seems like i'm not the only one who
Hates me today, just like yesterday
Annoying, fat and ugly how can it be okay?
Try as you may, it's a waste of your time
Everything will be the same, why tell myself a lie?
Take a long look at me, if you're lucky it's ur last,
Time to hide behind all i can, like a cruel ugly mask,
Not be the real me, nobody would want to see it anyways
I'll just stay here forever, enjoy the rest of ur days
I'm almost sure they'll be better without me,
There's only one way to find out. So long, it's time to see.

thats sad

yeah, well what ya gonna do. Things are slowly getting better, but i will never be 100% great, nobody ever will. if they are...i wanan know their secrets

true.

How can i feel such an emptiness inside??
I sourround myself with all the good i can,
yet all the while i feel i am forcing them to like
or even love me in a way they don't want to.
The feeling of desperation settles in for it's long stay
As i brace myself for what i am sure to be
Some tough months to come.
Looking at myself, I find nothing for others to admire
Or to even enjoy enough to come back again.
It's when i feel this, that I wonder...
How many of you have been lying to me?
Putting up with me like you have no choice in the matter.
I offer you nothing of value, no great looks, No amazing personality.
I'm just me.
That's it, nothing more, maybe even less.
What i really want is the truth,
What do u really think of me, and how can u bare to be around me
When i can hardly bare to be around myself.
So here I am asking you, telling you.
I'm not worth your time, so don't bother.
You're friends with others i know, so go with them
Have your fun, and maybe I'll see you again someday,
I hate for this to end, but I know not what to do anymore.

eh, this isn't good but it sure felt good when I wrote it.

The sky is grey
the sky is blue
the sky is nothing but
an illusion built for you.

It's filling up
it's time to run
it's coming down
what have I done?

Smelling with no light
breathe the cool air of the night
I am found within the dark
I am home under the rain
bridges burn behind my back
lightning crashes in my brain.

Chilled to the bone
soaked and all alone
but no regrets
I have my feet
I'm through the trees
and the rope is off my neck.

i like it, it almost seems like two differnt poems though. but still very cool.

Hello, cheap Bob Dylan rip-off.

"Carnival of The Ages"

I can't tell you where I've been
and I don't want to tell you when
I'm gonna be coming around again
There's a lot of business in this carnival world
it's always going to the girl
who holds her legs open the widest

It's the carnival of the ages
It's the carnival of the ages

Can't even get to where I'm going
And I can't tell you which way
the wind is happening to be blowing
All I see is that our babies are growing
And they're turning into the sluts and gimps
that our parents never wanted them to be

It's the carnival of the ages
It's the carnival of the ages

Lines are forming in front of the girl
And you know what that means for the world
more children, more food, more little girls
to repeat just what their mommy did
to let the world turn a corner and leave skids
on the track and the orbit
Let me find out who I am in this decadent world
I'll get back to you in a little bit

It's the carnival of the ages
It's the words of the sages
that we didn't bother to listen to
It's a decadent world, through and through.

interesting song, ray.

Roads

When the moon cowers behind its wispy veils
Will you illuminate the dark pathways and frighten the sullen shadows away?
Will you take my hand and guide me through the beaten, cracked roads of life,
Warding off the twisted, knobby fingers of time?
Or will you steal the moonlight away from me,
And walk away down a separate path
And leave me stumbling in the enveloping blackness of the night?

In the dark before the morning
the Earth breathes slow - asleep
I'm a lonely ghost out here
the stars are leaving me.

Sinking through the cracks between
wet emerald blades of grass
I hide my eyes from this old world
that's turning much too fast.

For miles I have borne myself
with no aim or road
I am lost, so now I lie
and dream of something more.

In the cold my heart grows stronger
I will start anew tomorrow
I drift away to someplace darker
I'll be a knight in blinding armour
someday.

I lie beyond the streetlights
in a lightless sleep
warmed by the strength of the weary
with the promise of things to be.

The sun it comes
to wake me up
and burn away my dreams
and glow upon my forgotten thoughts
and the person I might've been
that only it can see.

i like it. especially this part:

Sinking through the cracks between
wet emerald blades of grass
I hide my eyes from this old world
that's turning much too fast.

nice rhythm.

Thom Yorke's got nothing on me in "oddly phrases hated love" songs.

Tripping wires

Broken promises,
strings and harnesses,
holding up the moon for you.
Trials for trouble,
the silence and rubble,
making me see red
when you come through.

Tripping wires,
soothsayers and liars,
who should be believed.
Hot air like a hairdryer,
Stonefaced
and an endless cryer.

Silent motormouth,
bushleaguer in the big leages.
Formula for incidents,
giving off solid steam.

Cheating on IQ tests,
smarter getting nonetheless.
Sneaking in, breaking in,
snapping hearts like a godsend.

Women and men,
bitches and bastards.
Last hearing, first words,
Running against the herd.

Inspiration: Watching Johnny Cash's video for "Hurt" and seeing the Man In Black and how he's... fading, you could say. The structure of this even seems to be kind of like "Hurt" and that lyrical structure. It has no title because nothing I can think of sums up the poem, or catches my eye as a good title.

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Death stalks my name;
my hands shake and jerk.
My skin is pale and numb;
I walk where the shadows will lurk.

If you could have something
to remember my face;
take it from me now,
before I am all but erased.

Forget all the pain I have caused,
My dearest, closest friends;
I will not be able to apologize,
I will not be able to make amends.

My back is crooked,
my eyes are faded and gone;
I'll lay here to exit,
Removing all of right or wrong.

My voice is gone,
I have no tears.
My body is shaking,
I've given into my fears.

I once was tall,
I once felt proud.
Now all that is left for me
is a reaper's shroud.

The keys of my piano
have aged out of tune;
these flowers that I have planted,
I'll wilt away before they bloom.

I don't know where I'll be
in the moments when I'm gone;
I don't even know
when life will move on.

Lay me down on my bed;
I'll sleep the ride through.
Don't try to wake me again;
I'll have moved on to someplace new.