There is a guy (colin) that I have liked for about 3 and a half months. All this time, he has had a girlfriend, which wasn't great, but okay. Me and my best friend are in Video class with him and his best friend (josh). I have always liked him, and my best friend has always like his best friend, who also has a girlfriend.
Then, on friday, after much convincing by my best friend, colin finally broke up with his girlfriend. In the mean time, my best friend has started liking Colin, which isn;t the coolest, because I don't have the highest self-esteem as it is, and she has no trouble what so ever with guys, in fact she has several that like her. My fear is that he will decide to go out with someone new, and that won't be me. I'll get over it if it's someone I don't know, but if it's her, that could be quite destructive to my already low self-worth.
She asked me for his email address today, so she could MSN him. She has Josh's phone number, and I have Colin's email. I basically told her I'd rather not she had it (because it's the one thing i have over her), and she told me, fine, she'd ask him tommorow. That kind of upset me, because I really do have trouble talking to guys, and quite obviously, she'd be better than me at it, and ruin any chances I did have with him.
I finally agreed to give it to her. She just asked me if I would hate her if I had it. I sighed, and said of course not and gave it to her. I'm not the kind of person that will hold it against her, that would be pointless. But the thing is, she cared not how I FELT, but how my emotions would affect her. I feel bad, but I think she was being really selfish. She can get any guy she wants. Why does she need THIS one? And why doesn't she care about my emotions at all? And now I feel like crying over something incredibly stupid and useless.
