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Yes, and I'm saying that YOU'RE WRONG.

Calm down, geez.

i thought today was going to be a normal day, but...let me tell you all a story. so there's this guy, right? and i got really stoned a few weeks back and hit on him. without really meaning to. after that, i was being all stupid around him (stoned or not) and hitting on him all the time, but i was only kidding, i didn't actually like him. and i thought that was obvious, that i was joking. cause we're kind of friends and we joke around. and THEN i had to go and start ACTUALLY liking him.

he really frustrates me because well...everything he says to me, comes out wrong, sounding like an insult, and everything i say to him starts an argument because i'm all "what do you mean by that?" "why do you always say stuff like this?" "don't you care that you're hurting my feelings?" and we both get really frustrated and confused, and have no idea what the other means.

so then, today, i'm thinking it'll be another normal day, but in the class we have together....we had our usual communication *problem*. and i just got all, "GAWD I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE" and i left the room crying and stuff. and then he comes out a while later and starts talking to me, we're trying to sort stuff out. and then he says "i know. you may think i don't know but i know. i know everything." and i'm like "well what the hell do you mean by that?" and he's all, "you figure it out." me:" i hate your roundabout way of talking! this is exaclty what frustrates me about you! just TELL me!" -sick of things again, runs away again- him:"jillian don't leave i'll tell you" me: "i don't care, fuck off"

-goes farther, then stops a bit more down the hall, listens to him- him: "i know you like me." me: "i know." -sooo pissed off- i know it was obvious but...ego much? i mean...i don't know, i know he was right and everything. but it's like he was taunting me. -didn't really say much more, extremely frustrated and confused- him: -probably also really confused- "we gotta go back to class" me: "yeah" -walk into class- -kind of angry and really frustrated and still wanting to punch something, feeling like nothing has been solved-

another thing, i thought he kind of liked me too, at least he had basically admitted that he used to, and my friend was also fairly sure he liked me. but then it's just..."i know you like me." "oh" -feels like poo-

he doesn't like that i smoke pot, which is what started this whole goddamn thing in the first place. -realizes friends are right, sigh- he and my friend we giving me a lecture once, 'you're so much better than that, you have so much potential, why do you do it, it's pointless,' etc. i know they're right, too. as i'm writing this, i'm almost considering quitting because...if i hadn't gotten stoned that one time in the first place, i wouldn't have kind of accidentaly hit on him, and started this.

i'm so frustrated, i think i'm going to sleep on this. i have so much frustration about it all, but i don't really know how to tell him what i mean, i've tried but...it never really comes out right either.

this turned out much longer than i thought it would.

moo

its4am_isanybodyhome wrote:he doesn't like that i smoke pot, which is what started this whole goddamn thing in the first place. -realizes friends are right, sigh- he and my friend we giving me a lecture once, 'you're so much better than that, you have so much potential, why do you do it, it's pointless,' etc. i know they're right, too.

why the fuck does he care, i dont smoke pot but i dont give a shit if people do, its their own choice if they want to or not
a bunch of people i know do

and him and his friend lectured you? are you sure hes not a huge douchebag, what bussiness is it of his

if one of my friends tried to lecture me like that i would tell them to fuck off

yeah i was pretty pissed...i don't know, part of me thinks they are right...but i know i'll probably go smoke some tomorrow anyway and just be like...screw off.

alexandra says:
i like a boy who arranges his PEZ dispensers in alphabetical order
alexandra says:
with father christmas filed under C as Claus, Santa

Jillian, that sucks.

But Alex. Claus, Santa!!!!

I know, he's a keeper

Hahahahaha indeed.

happening fish wrote:alexandra says:
i like a boy who arranges his PEZ dispensers in alphabetical order
alexandra says:
with father christmas filed under C as Claus, Santa

thats the best.

nikki4982 wrote:Jillian, that sucks.

But Alex. Claus, Santa!!!!

yeah, it does but oh well.
actually i talked to him the other day (i have to stop doing that, i just keeps making things worse) and me: are things going to be all weird between us now? him: no. why would they be? me: okay, were you even there yesterday? because of stuff...that happened... him: you mean me knowing that you've liked me for the past year? me: YEAR?! him: okay, half a year. me: i've liked you for like, a week. him: oh.
HA! burst his bubble!

and alex.

I need to initiate a good hand holding/cuddle session.

Everyone could always use more of that

No, I need it much much more than most people

Henrietta wrote:No, I need it much much more than most people

Pssh! Everybody needs cuddles!!!

I could use some cuddlin'

even a little bit of huggling

nikki4982 wrote:Pssh! Everybody needs cuddles!!!

I need so much help with dating that I'm probably beyond saving, so here goes.

I really wish to know what women need to see in a guy to be attracted:
How important are looks?
How important is a sense of humor?
Do girls like dominant, aggressive males more then that shy/respectful type?

also what's the best way approach a girl without coming off as too obvious:
-Should I be really nice and friendly with a girl I just met?
-Should I try to be funny and entertaining?
-Should I just be passive and simply wait for something to form between us?

Please help . I know this may sound like I'm just looking for pity, but I feel like I'm going to be alone forever.