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Yeah, I've gone through a lot. I haven't had a will to live for the past three years now, and well, yeah. Nothing's going to change, and I deserve better than what I have. What can I say?

Why do you do that?

I have never understood self mutilation. I've tried it in the past and just felt like it wasn't worth the hassle, even if it was a stress reliever and I felt a little better afterwards. I draw over the scars now with sharpie and make temporary tattoos so I can wear short sleeves again...

Everyone handles things differently =|

I don't know anymore....maybe when you take handfulls of pills and go to sleep hoping you don't wake up, you might understand....

I hope that I will never be in that sort of situation

I hate pain. Emotional pain is enough, why do people inflict physical pain on themselves too?

Don't try to explain.

i agree with Cass.


I guess it's something i won't ever understand.

I just keep thinking of some time when I don't live with this shit anymore and I am not relying on people I hate. I can drown myself in misery far too easily...and sometimes I wonder why the hell I am still here but I just hope there will be a time where I can move on and shed myself of the past.

Hopefully I'm going to a party tonight with my friend Andrew... I've never really been to a party before; the friends I have don't GO to parties, or throw parties, and I'm just not popular enough to get invited to them anyways.

I'll decide when I get there wether I'll be drinking or not. I figure I might as well TRY IT before I decide to never do it again. Which may make me sound like a hypocrite after what I said in the Drinkin and Tokin topic <____<

Cass wrote:I hate pain. Emotional pain is enough, why do people inflict physical pain on themselves too?

sometimes physical pain is easier to handle then emotional pain .. so you take the pain your feeling in your heart and inflict it somewhere else as a release ..

when i was depressed in high school, i would feel so upset that sometimes i would do stuff like hurt myself because i wanted the feelings to stop and i thought that maybe inflicting pain would help...it really didn't though

when i mean "hurt myself" i don't mean like cut myself or anything. i would just like squeeze my arms and stuff like that.

Physical pain gives you something to take your mind off the emotional pain. And it can be the only way of getting rid of sadness or anger or frustration or things like that. I cut myself once but it just didn't hurt enough. I used to be covered in bruises from hitting myself. I'm much better than I was not that I'm not depressed so much any more, but I'll still find myself doing it sometimes if I get really upset about something.

i'm bored.
i'm ready to go back to school.

*pokes head in*

Howdy y'all.

Joey wrote:

Cass wrote:I hate pain. Emotional pain is enough, why do people inflict physical pain on themselves too?

sometimes physical pain is easier to handle then emotional pain .. so you take the pain your feeling in your heart and inflict it somewhere else as a release ..

yes, that's how i feel...

I geuss I can relate, in a way. Sometimes moderate amounts of pain can feel so good. Or...maybe I'm just crazy.

Yes, yes, I think I'm crazy.

I donno, even if it does feel good i completely disagree with hurting yourself. I understand the concepts and reasons behind it but its by no means a healthy way or release.

It really sad when someone has such a low oppinion of themselves that they have to hurt their body.

And im not talking about sad in a pathetic type of way.

Yeah well, everyone hurts themselves every day. Even if they don't know what they're doing.

Ok, that is by no means an excuse, but I just mean some people overeat or whatever and are slowly killing themselves off.