It was, but I'm starting to get better. It's a lot better now that I don't have to live where it happened, so I don't relive it that much. Now I can talk about it without reliving it, too... So I'm doing pretty well.emily wrote:I'm so sorry, I know that doesn't help, but it must have been so damaging.
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is it too much to ask for empathy and good humour from one's friends?
am I the only person in the world who doesn't deserve these things?
no one has ever gone out of their way to make me feel good. not even the close friends whom I have gone out of my way to help and cheer up, even when all I get in return is acid and my help is immediately forgotten.
people just drop me like baggage, and blame me. I'm always wrong. even guys that are apathetic as hell, don't listen to a word others say, and insults people all the time without so much as realizing it receives more forgiveness and warmth than I ever do. why? do I have to be an ignorant, apathetic, joker bordering on jackass just for people to care?
am I the only person in the world who doesn't deserve these things?
no one has ever gone out of their way to make me feel good. not even the close friends whom I have gone out of my way to help and cheer up, even when all I get in return is acid and my help is immediately forgotten.
people just drop me like baggage, and blame me. I'm always wrong. even guys that are apathetic as hell, don't listen to a word others say, and insults people all the time without so much as realizing it receives more forgiveness and warmth than I ever do. why? do I have to be an ignorant, apathetic, joker bordering on jackass just for people to care?
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Josh, I am sorry, but that is what happens with the people that help others. The only people that seem to have their problems listened to are the assholes of life. No one that is deserving one attention seems to get it.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.
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Ugh. Alex has been bad. My friend told me she was over her ex who she broke up with like 3 months ago, and I was stupid enough to believe her. Now someone told her we were going out before I could tell her myself and she is furious with me. I feel shitty about it and I've told her repeatedly that I'm sorry but she doesn't believe me. Well you know what... I don't think I did anything wrong, so I'm not going to let her guilt me into ruining this relationship. 
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I agree with that. I only have one really close friend. The rest of my friends just seem to come and go, but I feel really lucky to at least have one person.lora wrote:^ that is so true. i have two friends who really mean the world to me, and i think they feel the same about me. it has taken so long to finally feel this way about friends. heh. i can remember all that bullshit with other people i used to associate myself with. argh.
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