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Tempting, but I give up in trying for that. I think the time for belatedness has passed.

Well I'd throw you a party

I know you would. *hugs*

*snuggles*

one of my best friends completely forgot about my birthday. i didn't mention it at all just to see if she would, and as i predicted, she did. although tons of other people i wasn't even that close to didn't, and went out of their way to do things like serenade me in the halls. i'm sending an email out at 12 midnight tonight to wish <i>her</i> a happy birthday. i've also been counting down to it to make sure i wouldn't forget.

sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

To be honest, I don't know ANYONE'S birthday. The only reason I post them in my journal is because my client reminds me. Otherwise, I'd never know.

It's not because I don't care.

It's because I'm terrible at remembering dates.

My mom had to remind me that my grandmother's 80th birthday is August 2nd. See? I don't remember this shit. I know my parents' birthdays, my brother's birthday, and my grandfather's birthday and that's it.

yeah, i don't know anyone's birthday either, but i make an effort to find out during the year and i mark it down and remind myself somewhere. but, you know.

Yeah, my attention span is too short for that.

afealicious wrote:one of my best friends completely forgot about my birthday. i didn't mention it at all just to see if she would, and as i predicted, she did. although tons of other people i wasn't even that close to didn't, and went out of their way to do things like serenade me in the halls. i'm sending an email out at 12 midnight tonight to wish <i>her</i> a happy birthday. i've also been counting down to it to make sure i wouldn't forget.

sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

See, this were my apparently good friends.....and um some members of my family.

*hugs Rusty*

Finding great friends in this life is exceptionally difficult.

Rusty wrote:

afealicious wrote:one of my best friends completely forgot about my birthday. i didn't mention it at all just to see if she would, and as i predicted, she did. although tons of other people i wasn't even that close to didn't, and went out of their way to do things like serenade me in the halls. i'm sending an email out at 12 midnight tonight to wish <i>her</i> a happy birthday. i've also been counting down to it to make sure i wouldn't forget.

sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

See, this were my apparently good friends.....and um some members of my family.

Almost the opposite happened to me. Everyone remembered, and sent me messages and stuff. But there's no one around at all.
I've tried to contact like, eight people. But here I am still sitting at the computer.

afealicious wrote:sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

I get that a lot. Karma doesnt always work. Sometimes I feel like I give a lot to my friends and try to put a lot of effort into our friendship...and it'll never come back to me. When I stop trying, the whole thing falls apart and there have been times that I haven't talked to my best friends for months because I wanted to see if they would at least take the initive. And they didn't.
Sometimes you jsut have to push through and do it for the 'thank yous' cause that's all your going to get.

AnnieDreams wrote:

Rusty wrote:

afealicious wrote:one of my best friends completely forgot about my birthday. i didn't mention it at all just to see if she would, and as i predicted, she did. although tons of other people i wasn't even that close to didn't, and went out of their way to do things like serenade me in the halls. i'm sending an email out at 12 midnight tonight to wish <i>her</i> a happy birthday. i've also been counting down to it to make sure i wouldn't forget.

sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

See, this were my apparently good friends.....and um some members of my family.

Almost the opposite happened to me. Everyone remembered, and sent me messages and stuff. But there's no one around at all.
I've tried to contact like, eight people. But here I am still sitting at the computer.

:O is today your birthday??

Dear fate,

Two days in a row? What have I done to piss you off?

Regrettably bound by you,

Russell

Dear mother:

Shut the fuck up.
I'm sick of being invited over for dinner and then lectured and sent home crying.
It's really starting to wear me out.

I love you but you drive me insane.

Meg

Dear World.


I'm lonely. Send someone over to be with me


-Johnny

Come stay with me.

Dear life,

I hate you.

I don't think you understand just how much.

Today, I nearly tossed my car door open and jumped out simply because I felt it would be better than sitting there for another second.

I am sick of feeling inadequate.
I am sick of being lonely.
I am sick of being unsatisfied with my life.

No matter how good it gets it’s just not what I want…

but then I again, I don’t know what I want anymore…

Why do I have to ruin the good things I have?
Why do I want to do things that are gonna make my life harder?
Why do I push my self to be something I am not because that’s what someone else expects of me?

I just want to be able to spend an entire day without thinking about hurting myself or killing myself…

Not that I have to courage to actually do it…

Please just let me stop crying for once.
Please just let me sleep an entire night again.
Please just make this stop hurting so I stop hurting myself.


Yours with bitter tears in her eyes,

Cas

saman wrote:

AnnieDreams wrote:

Rusty wrote:

afealicious wrote:one of my best friends completely forgot about my birthday. i didn't mention it at all just to see if she would, and as i predicted, she did. although tons of other people i wasn't even that close to didn't, and went out of their way to do things like serenade me in the halls. i'm sending an email out at 12 midnight tonight to wish <i>her</i> a happy birthday. i've also been counting down to it to make sure i wouldn't forget.

sometimes you're just nice to people you consider your friends, and you don't get anything back because they just don't care about you as much as you care about them. it happens, and in time you come to your own decision on whether or not you want to keep doing what you're doing for them.

See, this were my apparently good friends.....and um some members of my family.

Almost the opposite happened to me. Everyone remembered, and sent me messages and stuff. But there's no one around at all.
I've tried to contact like, eight people. But here I am still sitting at the computer.

:O is today your birthday??

It was!