by Bandalero » 12/30/2005, 10:07 pm
Well, its official, I just have to leave this company.
I sat around with the lady up front and kind of vented about the problems with the company. Today I got written up twice, once for showing up late to work on a constant basis, and the other for like disobedience. Both were totally merited, and me and my boss had another sit down. (We’ve had three.) He’s frustrated with me, and if I were him I would be frustrated with me too. I’ve been acting like I own the place, not a single shred of fear crosses my mind when i show up late for work, or when I blatantly do not do what is asked of me.
Yesterday I made one mistake in processing bills. One, the first one in like 2 months, in like 6,000 invoices. My boss wasn't mad, but he was worried. The lady up front was worried, and it seemed like everyone that was apart of this little mistake was worried, except me. An e-mail was sent out to the lady up front, and I suppose it was a nasty one. She called me and wanted an explanation, and I told her, it was an honest mistake. And there I was, sitting there, letting this woman explain my mistake, when she had nothing to do with it. I would not allow it, and I outright demanded that she give me the number to whoever the hell it was that was asking this question. And with reluctance, she gave it to me, but warned that I was not to mouth off to the man, because he's an ass hole. And I returned to my office and my boss repeated the same message.
I just cannot figure it out. What’s the big deal? It’s an honest mistake and no one needs to explain my mistake for me. So I call, and leave a message, a stern one.
For the past few weeks, I’ve had a sneaking suspicion that my boss was hiding invoices from me. If I don't know about them, they will not get paid, and when they do not get paid, they simply do not exist. And I could not figure out why. He does not receive bonuses based on his expenses, there are no frills about keeping in the budget, there's just no reason that i saw that would make this man lie and cheat about his expenses. So I could not figure out why he would do such a thing. Until tonight.
This conversation with the woman up front opened my eyes, and just made me realize that my boss is not to blame for the mess. It’s the head men and women in charge. You see, the people I work with do everything in their power to try and avoid the head men and women in the company. Invoices are cut into 6 different invoices sometimes, just to avoid the peering eyes of the guy who had a shit attack over my mistake.
Whenever death may surprise us,
let it be welcome
if our battle cry has reached even one receptive ear
and another hand reaches out to take up our arms.
Nobody's gonna miss me, no tears will fall, no ones gonna weap, when i hit that road.
my boots are broken my brain is sore, fer keepin' up with thier little world, i got a heavy load.
gonna leave 'em all just like before, i'm big city bound, your always 17 in your hometown