by m2 » 12/31/2009, 3:39 am
I NEED YOUR HELP AGAIN!!!
But this time I'm being much more serious and this is more about a very close friendship, and not a relationship...
Ugh, where do I start...
There's this girl I know... and she...is just incredible. But not in a super athletic and attractive kind of way. I'm saying...she's been through a lot. Divorce, money and family troubles, and all of this has turned her to things like mild depression, self injury, low self esteem, etc. But most of you are probably picturing her as some Emo goth girl that hates life and cuts herself...but she's really not, at all. She just has those times where life just sucks for her..but the incredible thing is...she still finds hope in everything she does.
And I really like this girl... a lot. I've asked her out, I've stayed up talking to her for hours (hell, i just got off facebook chat with her at four thirty in the morning) I like her more than a friend. And...i really care about her and... i think the perfect way to explain this is to take what Raine said from the beginning of Are You Sad in the live album which is strange because that song really reminds me of her. The quote is:
You guys are all real people out there, right? Real people have real problems, and a problem...I find with a lot of people is, usually at some point in your life, there's a person very close to you, that you love, that needs help. The problem is that, usually, the time that the person needs the most help, is the time that they don't want your help. This next song is about that person that
everybody has, or will have. It's about trying to connect with them and help them and save them
and all those things that you wanna do but sometimes as human beings you can't do.
Sometimes it just feels like when I try to help, it just makes things worse.
I really don't know what I'm asking of you guys here. I guess....friendly advice? I don't know. I just really care about her and it seems like life is just falling apart for her. And it's not like most teenage girls where they put all the pressure and drama on themselves. She has good reasons. And i just.....care.