by Sufjan Stevens » 11/21/2003, 11:25 pm
But I am concerned about my lifetime. If there is a way to prove there is something more than life, I want to know about it before I die. I want a way to feel safe when I go to bed, and knowing that when I die, I have a place for my existance to continue. Sure, it sounds selfish, but what good will it do if someone discovers heaven and hell a year after I'm gone? These places just become meaningless to me after I die, because I am sent to spend eternity there. It's the same way as how we take living here on earth for granted. It's nice, but we care more about our lives than the place we live them on. Heaven and hell are only meaningful during life, because we want comfort in life that when we die, that's not the end. If we find out after we die, that's fine, but it will be taken for granted because that's our mental nature. Beyond that, I don't know what to say on this bit of info on this topic.
I am going to bed now (work = 5am) so when I come home from work tomorrow, there better be loads of interesting theories damnit. I want conversation here.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.