by Pyramanica_Naveedess » 4/3/2005, 10:58 pm
Here I am, sitting with just the dog in the house, disclothed and not ready, not appropriate. I miss it. I miss everything I used to have, just like a butterfly who used to be a caterpillar, change is great but it causes dreadful results, I know I’ve been hiding for a long time but you need to give me a chance. I am much different than you know I am. You know me well but not my changing overgrown sense of insecurity that you only can try to envision as the water that flows from my face to your shoulders when you say you understand but I know you can’t completely.... I love you but this feels like it shouldn’t be working the way it is, like a knife used instead of scissors, some other purpose that we never ever think about before performing the action, never thinking of the consequences, it just opens up the microcosm and offers its metallic hands for a self-sufficient half-assed solution that we can’t be bothered to think about, because we’re just too busy and disorganized and inappropriate for the world to handle us if we were to think too hard and put everything that’s bad aside and wonder why are we doing every little thing that we do every single day of every single week? And I’m not talking about the domino effect because that’s too easy to understand, I am meaning to talk to you and understand why just a smile or the movement of your hand can completely change the way I feel or the way you’re able to understand - because you know you see me through my own watery eyes and read me like a book, I wanted to tattoo everything into your skin and let it soak in on its way to your brain but it really doesn’t work out that way, not anymore, or ever…. All I can do is just write you a letter and hope you will understand that someday we’ll really be together and that I really can’t explain it but we will love each other forever and the world is too encompassing for us to live just right in it but for now we can just stare and admire this lovely minute.
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<p align="center"><font face="Geneva, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"><font color="#006600">~<font face="Geneva, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"><font color="#FF33CC">*</font><font color="#006600">~<font color="#33FFFF" size="+2" face="Times New Roman, Times, serif">SaRah</font>~</font><font color="#FF33CC">*</font><font color="#006600">~<font face="Geneva, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"></font></font></font></font></font></p><font face="Geneva, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"><font color="#006600"><font face="Geneva, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"></font><br><font size=12><font color="#333333" size="+1">I'm 14,000,000 miles away from <font color="#00FFFF">sane</font></a></font></font></font></font><font color="#00FFFF" size="3"><a href="http://www.blueoctoberfan.com"> ~ Blue October</a></font>
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