by Sufjan Stevens » 8/12/2003, 11:17 am
Everyone on this board calls me an asshole when I am blunt. I say what most people feel, but don't have the balls to say. Yet instead of being treated equal like the rest of the people on here, I get banned. I have to watch what I say just so everyone is appeased, or else I get banned from here for a week, or longer. I know Al wants me gone from here for good. That is shit. I should be able to say what I want. It's not like I go around and give you people viruses or anything, I say what I feel. Dan says what he feels. Yet I've been banned and he will probably be banned within the week. Yeah, real cool.
I faced death. I went in with my arms swinging. But I heard my own breath and had to face that I'm still living. I'm still flesh. I hold on to awful feelings. I'm not dead... My chest still draws breath. I hold it. I'm buoyant. There's no end.